We were currently sitting in the bus parked outside the venue in Minnesota. Hannah, Calum,and I were watching Taken and Calum looked over at the window I was next to.
"Hey are you girls scared of spiders?" He asked and I look over and scream in the middle of the window was a HUGE spider like the size of a quarter. We both screamed and ran into the kitchen area.
"What's wrong?" Michael asked.
"There's a spider!" I said as Calum came out and walked to the bathroom.
"I'll go kill it." Luke said standing up and walking into the living room. "Kaylee it's not even inside, c'mere I just want you to touch the glass see?" He said tapping the window and brining my hand to the window I was almost crying when I saw Michael come up to the window and grab at the spider a few minutes later the tour bus door opened and he walked in.
"Girls time to face your fears." Michael said and Hannah ran in the game room locking me out and leaving me cornered. "Kaylee." He said sticking his hand out and I started crying and hyperventilating it felt like the walls were closing in and I was terrified. "Hey Kaylee it's okay calm down there's nothing there see? Look. It's ok come here." Michael said opening his empty hand and pulling me into a hug. (A/n that actually happened to me well minus 5sos)
"Dude you just made a fifteen year old girl cry...and I got it all on Keek." Ashton said as Michael kissed the top of my head and rocked me back and forth trying to comfort me.
"You can't post that!" He yelled and I wriggled out of his grip and ran over and into Luke's arms.
"She like me better now!" Luke said sticking his tongue out at him.
"I'm posting it and naming it Michael's an arse." Ashton said and Hannah slowly opened the door.
"Hey guys I have a really bad headache so I'm gonna go to bed night." Hannah said as walked over to her bunk which we were pretty close to.
"Come on guys lets continue this conversation elsewhere." Luke said carrying me to the kitchen as the boys followed.
"Kaylee I'm really sorry I'll make it up to you some how." Michael said.
"It's alright." I mumbled but my face was in Luke's chest so it was hard to hear.
"Calum you jerk!" Michael said reaching across the table and hitting Calum.
"What?" I asked and Calum showed me a tweet on his phone 'So Kaylee's deathly afraid of spiders. Right Michael? (Go check keek)' he had tagged Michael in the tweet and it already had loads of retweets and favorites.
"Hey Ash? Can I get a twitter?" I asked.
"I don't think that's a good idea baby girl. And you do know you can call me dad right?" He said.
"Ok. But why can't I get a twitter?"
"Because I don't want you to see all the hate, we don't want your depression to-" he said but he clamped his hand over his mouth before he could say anything else. Last year I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety but nobody knew about that it was in my confidential files and the only way the boys could've known about that was if someone from the orphanage told them.
"How'd you find out about that?" I asked getting serious.
"At one of our meet and greets we saw a girl from the orphanage and she, she uh told us some things about your past." Ash said.
"Like what?" I asked my voice shaking I didn't want anyone to know. Then people would think I'm broken but I'm not.
"Um well she told us about how you were emotionally abused and bullied, about how you used to get teased for your weight. She mentioned something about you having to go to therapy because you got suicidal. And you quit talking up until two weeks before we adopted you. I just don't want you going back to that." He said
"She shouldn't have told you that I didn't want you to know." I said and I was almost crying.
"Why not?" Calum asked and I just shook my head.
"I'm tired. I want to go to bed." I said and I actually was crying. Luke carried me to my bunk and kissed my head.
"Hey can we talk?" Calum asked climbing into my bunk.
"What about?" I asked barely whispering.
"Why didn't you want us to know?" He asked and I started crying I hated thinking about my past.
"Because then you would think I'm broken and I'm not. I used to be but I'm better I learned how to pick myself up and glue myself back together. I didn't want you to treat me like a little glass doll. That's what people thought of me as a glass girl and I'm not anymore! I'm not like that." I sobbed and Calum lied next to me and stroked my head.
"Shh I know, I know. You are so much stronger then other people think. I know because you remind me of a friend of mine. Her name's Lilly. She was adopted just like you and had a lot of the same problems." He said and I calmed down a little. It was nice knowing he understood.
"People used to call me fat and ugly. They said I was worthless and to go kill myself and they threw frozen yogurt and rocks at me. Once a boy told me I look like a bull dog and I would never get married or have kids cuz no one wants to do that stuff with a bull dog." I said sobbing and Calum stroked my hair.
"Shh. It's alright. It's alright. I'm here. You are beautiful and perfect and we all love you ok? Me, Luke, Ashton ,Michael, Hannah, Alexa, Emily, and even some of our fans ok?" Calum said and I could tell he was holding back tears.
"I want to sleep." I said and he nodded kissing the top of my head before he left.
(This chapter was really emotional for me to write because like all of the stuff towards the end has actually happened to me.)
