Goodbyes are stupid

chapter 1 : a new friend. ughh.

it's 5:00 am in the morning. no one is awake.

i like to wake up at this time to draw this big beautiful msafsafi tree in our backyard. it's taken me 2 weeks to draw it and i'm finally done.

my love for drawing nature is unexplainable. it's the only thing that i do in my free time. i don't know what it is about the strange colorful flowers, or the big light green trees, or the cute adorable birds that soar in the sky, but for some reason I just love it.

i hear my mom's alarm go off. my mom works at a hospital as a therapist. i get to go with her every friday and help. it's okay, I guess. i talk to a lot of kids there, but i started to do paperwork instead of hanging with the them after what happened. other than that she just takes care of my sister Laura and i. i don't have a dad,  well I do but it's better if we just say I don't.

" Mia. "

i hear my mom call my name and go downstairs. when i reached the bottom of the stairs i saw my sister still in her pj's watching Teen Wolf. she's obsessed with it and loves Tyler Posley. my mom is already dressed , has her hair in a ponytail, and is making waffles. i sit on my spinny stool and wait for her to give me my waffles. when she does my stomach starts to grumble. yea that always happens for some reason.

" I need you to come to work with me " she said pouring in her coffee in a mug.

" What? But it's Monday and I was gonna ask Maryssa if she wanted to go watch a movie. "

i said as i finished my last waffle.

" You can watch a movie another day, plus your already dressed so lets go. "

" But -- "

"No buts , c'mon lets go. Laura your aunt will be here in an hour to pick you up so be ready. "

my sister still has her eyes on the tv and i'm not sure if she heard mom or not.

" Yea. Okay. Whatever. "

i'm still sitting down on the stool wondering why my mom needed me on a monday. my thoughts were interrupted by her calling my name.

" Mia c'mon lets go. "

" Ughhh fine "

it's all i could say. i ran up to my room brushed my teeth, put on my shoes, and got my stuff. when I got downstairs I grabbed my extra home key and got in the car.

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when we got there i saw only a few kids out in the, as what I call, the big hangout. it's a huge room with small furniture for the little ones and a rail on some of the furniture for the elderly to grab on. There's a fuss ball table, tvs, chairs, and 9 couches. so this room was the center of the whole building.  some guys about 16-17 were watching tv or on their phones. Some 3-4 year olds were playing with toys and there was this elderly couple watching tv. i smiled at that. it would've been so nice if true love existed but it really doesn't exist. i pushed away those thoughts and walked towards my mom's office.

when i got to my mom's room the first thing I did was plop myself on her couch. or what she likes to call her " therapy couch". when i was 8 she told me the couch made me forget about everything and she didnt get to finish because I started screaming , remembering I layed on it earlier that day. i was convinced I forgot everything until i realized i knew who i was and who mom and Laura were. i know understood by what she ment. you get to forget everything for a while and you feel like it's okay to say anything. you really open up and it kinda creeps me out sometimes.

" You don't want to hang in the common room? "

the common room is the big hangout.

" Why did you bring me? "

i asked avoiding her question.

" Well, I have a new patient - "

" What do any of your patients have to do with me? "

i interrupted her. i know where she's going with this, but I hope im wrong. she sighed.

" Mia... my new patient is a girl your age. Her name is Skye -- "

i knew it. i got up, but she pulled me back down. she sighed again.

" Listen to me. She's really shy. She doesn't talk much. I just need to see if she needs someone her own age to talk to. Okay? "

" So that's the only reason you picked me? "

she put her head down and i knew right away why she made me come.

" No. "

she said after a long pause. she looked up at locked her eyes on mine.

" You love it here and both of us know it. I want you to go have fun make some new friends. "

she said with a small smile on her face.

" I already have friends. And im going to make more when school starts. "

" I know, but right now your spending time here. You haven't made a new friend after what happened. "

this time i put my head down.

" Okay fine. But if something bad happens im out. "

a wide smile spread across her face showing her white teeth.

" She starts coming on Friday.  I just thought if you would be on the therapy couch , you'd be more relaxed. I love you. Be back in an hour. "

great I was tricked by my own mom and now I really came for no reason. well I got wifi and food. might as well enjoy it as long as I can.