without you i'm lost, but i never wanted you here to begin with

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I tend to struggle most days.

Disasterous cries and

One-track minds,

No one is safe from

The demons that plague them

Knowing my mind when I'm

Neither happy nor sad drags

Oxygen to my dirty lungs, but

Without you I'm an anxiety attack waiting to happen.

Who I am when I'm okay defines

How I feel when I'm up in arms

Only I know how to take everything I love away

I am not as content as I used to be.

Are you happy with the way your hand fit around 

My throat?

Are you content with the way I

Never seem to notice, when you

Don't care for me as much as I care for you?

W

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Boisterous laughter hidden

Under eyes wet with unshead
Tears.

Is there anything I love

More than feeling down? more

Than trying to pick myself up off of

Rusted metal flooring?

You know

I'm only as okay as the

Night is dark under a bright

Glowing moon

There is nothing special about

Only loving yourself under the sun.

Finally

I realize

Nothing I say has been good to my

Disasterous

Mind. but I guarantee that

You will never have my

Soul and that one day

Everything I

Love will save me in the

Final battle against you.

This poem is one of my favorites, not because I think it's all that poetic (though there is a message). But if you go back and read the first letters of each line in succession (only the capitalized ones) you'll see why ;)

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