Prologue of the Prologue: Nelora Mahariel

Chapter 11: Reflection to the Patterns of Falon'Din

Summary:

Reflection of self is the true way to get to know one, to find out who you truly are.

Notes:

"Before I ask you to sit with me, I must be able to sit with myself, before I ask you to accept my pain, I have to accept the pain myself, before I ask you to love me, I have to be madly in love with myself." – C.Thoth

It has been two weeks since she had her Valasleen done. Finally the meditation and soul searching had made it click for Nelora, what is a part of her and feels right is the Vallaslin dedicated to Falon'Din. She just likes what Falon'Din embodies, the compassion for the dead, the peace he brings through he's deeds and even his folly of vanity and wanting to be worshipped feels right because nothing and no one can be perfect and she understands that. The idea of his essence may be a little strange, scary but then again it is beautiful and it is for her because she is different and it is not a bad thing at all. Even though she is a hunter she comes to contact with death more than often and so the Vallaslin even connect to her position in the clan- a hunter position, the taker of liver to lives in order to help her clan and herself live.

She has noticed that after the period of time after finishing apprenticeship and before Vallaslin - the meditation time, it's changed her a little, she's calmer and she takes her time, there's no hurry to anywhere and there's so much depth in the nature, people in life and death around them. Everything feels fresh and complex and it is magnificent, it all is a miracle. Now the ideas of seeing the world and all wha is out there don't seem well... too out there.

As for the design of the blood-writing she got the simpler version of Falon'Din's markings and the color of them is a darker natural shade of purple with some gold accents that compliments her amethyst colored eyes, it was a somewhat bold choice but when haves she been subtle.

At this moment when she's really an adult she doesn't feel that much different, she is still the same person with a little wider view of the world and more responsibilities. Plus there are now expectations to find a bond-mate, have a family of her own, raise children but there is time with that - who would she bond with anyway? Everyone knows that she tends to be a little on the wild trouble side and that she's a little hot blooded, who would be willing to tie themselves down with someone like her, she can be really difficult and stubborn-a real headache... then again all of that buys her some time to think of all of it, be her own person for a while and see where life goes.

But does she even want to be bonded with someone? Does she even want children? It would be good to rely on someone really close like a bond-mate and intimate relations are nice too... especially if one would try out the things found in that book of Merrill's ... but it's a lot and she's just 18 and a new adult, no need to worry herself with such things, she's got her whole life ahead of her.