Do You Think We're Okay? t.f. x reader pt2

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I completely rebranded, so I had to make some more book covers.
JUST LOOK AT THEM. THEY'RE GORGEOUS. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF, FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE.
Do you guys like them as much as I do? Let me know in the comments. I wanna get some feedback.

ALSO: I wanna make a name for you guys. Like, since I'm gaining numbers so quickly, I wanna have a cute name for you guys.
Any suggestions?
Right now I'm thinking about:
-my gnarly nerds
-my bad b's
-my thicc trash bags (honestly me?)
& -my precious pineapples

HEAR ME OUT!
Pineapples have a hard, spiky outer layer. They're tough, and hard to get through.
But once you break that surface, you're greeted with a beautiful, sweet, and unique core.
You guys are some of the toughest people I know. I honestly love reading some of the comments where you guys tell me about your depression, anxiety, etc, and how you face it head one every day.
Idk, let me know what you all think in the comments.

This is just a fluffy, FUCKING ADORABLE chapter. It had me in tears while writing it.
I feel like we need a tiny bit of happiness after the last chapter.
And I know you all are gonna need it for the upcoming chapters.

Anyways, on with the heartbreak. 💔

I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant.

I'm pregnant.

I kept rethinking those two words over and over in my head, it felt like I was drowning in them.
I couldn't hear anything else besides for those two words and the booming of my heartbeat.
I felt like my ears were about to start bleeding, a headache starting to course through my skull.

What am I going to do?
Am I going to keep it?
Am I going to abort it?
What is TOM going to think? Oh my fucking god..
is HE going to want to keep it?
Will HE want to abort it?

I wanted to cry, just at the thought of telling Tom.
But sadly, I couldn't cry anymore. I had sobbed all of my tears out a few minutes ago.
Now, I'm left dehydrated and hollow, my thoughts and heartbeat being the only things that reminded me that I was still alive.

Emma had left a few minutes ago to go gather movies, food, etc, so I could cry and eat my feelings out.
I was left alone with my drowning, booming, thunderous thoughts.
Until I heard keys jingling and the garage door opening from downstairs.

I got up, looking in the mirror.
Trash. A mess. Worthless.

I wiped the tear stains away from my cheeks, pulling my hair up into a ponytail, trying to make myself look decent. As decent as I could.

I sped walked downstairs, walking into the kitchen to see William walking in with a few grocery bags.
He heard me enter, so he turned around once he put all of the bags on the counter.
He smiled at me, his smile causing a spark of hope and happiness to dwindle in my aching heart.

"Good evening, Miss Y/N. How are you tonight?"
"F-Fine, thank you, William." I croaked out.
He saw right past my bluff, like he always could. He was the first ever person to be able to see past my act.

He took off his coat, hanging it on the coat rack.
Then, he turned and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around my back and head, stroking my hair comfortingly.
He didn't say anything, he didn't need to.
All he did was stroke my hair and hum the tune of 'my little sunshine', holding me close to him tightly.

Apparently, I hadn't been as empty as I thought I was, because fresh tears started pouring effortlessly from my eyes.
I bit my bottom lip, trying to hold back my sobs, but I just couldn't take it.

I let out a few heart wrenching sob noises, burying my face into William's chest, wrapping my arms around waist loosely.
He shushed me quietly, kissing my forehead before continuing to hum.
He placed his chin on my head lightly, closing his eyes.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy, when skies are grey."

He started rubbing my back with his other hand, warming me up from both sides.

"You'll never know, dear, how much I love you.."

He pulled back, tilting my chin up to look at him.
"Miss Y/N, I feel like every time I see you down or hurt, I have to remind you how much you mean to me.
I was poor, almost homeless, and horribly heartbroken."

He took a shuttering inhale before continuing.

"And- And you were the first person in almost 4 years, to show me any sort of kindness.
You are humble, sweet, and amazing. I don't know what I- what the world, would do without you.

I think the world would be a little more dull, a little more black, white, and grey without you."

My lips quivered as sad tears were overflown by happy tears.
I buried my face back into his chest, crying some more as I sputtered out almost incoherent thanks.

"Y-You al-ways k-know what to-to say, W-William.."

I took a deep, shaky breath in, smelling his cologne that smelt like home.
Like fresh berries mixed with timber.
Mint mixed with scotch.
Love and happiness.

"Anytime, Miss Y/N. For you are my savior, my white knight,- my sunshine."

He leant his cheek down on top of my head, nuzzling me.
He went back stroking my back and hair, humming quietly as he held me with such protectiveness, such worry and care, it almost made me crumble to the floor.

"So please don't take, my sunshine away.."