Do You Think We're Okay? t.f. x reader pt2

A/N- x 💗

If you haven't heard yet, or you just don't care or listen to that type of music, a rapper/singer by the name 'xxxtentacion' got shot in Florida, resulting in him going into critical condition.

Paramedics said they found a pulse, but a few seconds later, they pronounced him dead.

This has not only hurt and torn the world apart, but also millions and millions of his fans, including me.

I was late to the news, coming across it maybe 10 hours or so later.
But that's a result of time zone differences, me being in China and all.

Rappers, singers, and celebrities along with all of x's fans were already done talking about it, almost done crying and giving up on everything over it.

For ex., my favorite artist at the moment, Lil Xan, went live a few moments after the news had been released.
He said,
"This can't be real dude, it can't be real. X was one of my biggest inspirations, he can't be dead.'

x was an inspiration to many, being a person who wasn't shy about talking about hard things, such as depression, suicide, poverty, and other things that other people are too shy to even mention.

I personally listen to him because his voice soothes me.
When I feel like I'm having a panic attack or I'm just feeling fucking rough, I turn to him.
His songs like 'Fuck Love', 'Sad!', and 'Look At Me' being some of my favorites in times of being hurt, sad, or broken.

I found out about the news through YouTube, actually.
I was listening to Lil Xan, a song that he was ft. in called 'Color Blind', when I scrolled through other videos with Diego in it, coming across one that was titled,
'Rappers reactions to Xxxtentacion's death'

My immediate reactions was to laugh under my breath, mumbling, "No, no, no, this can't be real."
I immediately took to google, googling,
'Xxx-'
And before I could even finish typing his name, some results popped up:
'Xxxtentacion shot'
'Xxxtentacion killed in Florida'
'Xxxtentacion dead'

Air got caught in my throat as my eyes immediately swelled with tears.
This man, this amazing, helpful, considerate man that I looked up to as a coping mechanism,
is dead.

And this is exactly how many, many others feel right now.

I'm asking that you all please keep the comments on this chapter neutral, respectful, and humane.
This is a hard time for many, I don't feel like laughing, making stupid jokes, or anything else would be respectful.
Thanks. 💕

Please, sleep well, you can finally be where you belong.
Up there with all the other legends.

"They say 'follow your heart', but if your heart is in a million pieces, which one do you follow?"

-xxxtentacion

"Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.

Nothing gold can stay."

-Robert Frost

Rest in piece, baby.
The world is a lil more dull, sad, and ignorant without you.
and a lil less gold. 💗✨

Xoxo,
-gnarlyhoe