I am angry.
There is no reason for this feeling, but yet it's there. A wave of rage washed over me today. Making me think things I shouldn't think and made me want to say things I shouldn't say. I held my tongue like I always do.
As the day progressed I had reasons to feel angry, stupid, and alone.
No one understands me.
I feel so alone.
But I am angry. People do understand but I push them away. I tune out the voices that try to help me. They are always there; they are always near.
They are always here.
I listen to them sometimes, but it seems like when I need them the most they disappear. My brain tunes them out.
There is something inside my mind that says " you don't need their help. you can do this on your own."
I can't do this on my own. I need people. I need support. They are there but they just get tuned out.
It's not my fault I swear. I listen. I try to listen but their words get lost in translation.
It's not fair.
I'm trying my best but all my attempts seem to fail.
But hey I'm okay.
I can't do this by myself.
I can't do this by myself.
I can't do this by myself.
I can't do this by myself.
I can do this by myself.
