My Sleepy Boy

chapter 10

"Eve, were have you been? Your father went crazy... You weren't answering your phone... you weren't in the beach as we thought you were, and there was no one with you we could call...Do you understand how much worried we were?" I can totally get her anger... but I didn't know we would be out of the hotel, nor that I had forgotten my phone in my room...And for sure that we would stay in there for the whole morning...It's almost 6 p.m. and I had promised my parents that we would be together for lunch...

"Mum, I'm sorry..." I can't say anything else which makes her even angrier than before...

"That's all you can say, why do I even bother? Eve, tell me honey...do you want to stay glued to your father and I for the whole vacation? Why don't you start telling me what is going on?" Mum I can't...

"Mum, I found some kids from school... and we lost the truck of time." This is kind of true anyway...

"And you didn't feel the need to call us? Do you know how many times we tried calling you?" I look at my phone screen and there are 22 missed calls... nice....

"Mum, I thought I had my phone with me...and I know when you want something you call..." also true...

"If you do this again... you won't feel the need to search for calls we will be together anyway..." she leaves the room exhausted...

That was close... I don't want to think how she would react if I've told her that I was alone with a guy in the middle of nowhere... and that we would meet again tonight after she'll fall asleep in our beach...

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I drag my tired feet to the bathroom and take a hot shower trying to regain some energy...

Walking out of the showering can just stand in front of the mirror... I see a girl watching me with her eyes glowing and that's what makes me startle... She seems too plain, too normal... She's not that beautiful, that thin... her auburn wavy long hair is something to brag about maybe her chick bones too... but that doesn't explain why she feels so special every time she is with him... They way he looks at her, the way he is so open with her and in less than three days he had managed to get her open up more than her friends had managed in 8 years is driving her crazy...

What would I do if he just plays with me... what will happen after the following three days...? I need to find a way to deal with my emotions...but everything is so new... I am not used to letting myself free... I like to be in control and what is happening now is so out of my control...what if he isn't ready for that... what if I am not ready for it either?

I walk out of the bathroom get dressed for dinner with my parent and count the minutes till our next meeting only 5 hours to go...

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"Eve, what is taking you so long?" He whispers out of the window of my room...

"I'm coming..." I had to first make sure my parents were asleep, find my phone (not doing the same mistake again), my bag...

I open the door and there he is waiting for me with his anxiety reaching new levels...

"What where you doing in there, that took you 30 minutes?" He comes closer trying to take my bag...

"Don't talk..." I close his mouth... "At least we left now!"

"How was your day?" Aw... He blush...what is he thinking?

"You mean the few hours that we where apart?" Should I be frank about it? "Boring... Yours?" I hope he waited for that meeting as much as I did...

"Endless!" Great... now I can't hide my smile... Stupid Eve... Wait he smiles back... I need to break the eye contact...

As we walk to the beach... A cold breeze reaches our way... I wanted to swim... well apparently not tonight...

"Are you cold?" He sits down next to some rocks...

"No, I brought a blanket!" I take a blanket out of my bag and sit next to him...

"You took your blanket to the beach? That's why our maids complain so much..." I didn't think he would mind... I take the blanket back but he stops me... "It's ok I was kidding..." He raps it around us and whispers to my ear... "Better, now..."

"Yeah, but we could just go somewhere warmer..." He frowns; I want to grab his cheeks so much right now...

"No, it's better this way! I like touching you..."he puts his hands around me and then filters what came out from his mouth a few seconds ago... "Not like that, well maybe like that too, it's not that I talk to you for touching you, I don't like you, well I do but not for your body, not that you don't have a nice body, cause you do, but..."

Did he just say that he likes me?

"Ok, ok, I got you! Stop now..." I put him out of his misery... "Look at the stars I want to name one after me, and then say to everyone, look at that beautiful bright star it's named Evelyn isn't the brightest of all out there?" And of course it will be!

"How would you know which one is yours?" I hadn't thought of that...

"It will be the brightest of them all!" I laugh while resting my head in his shoulder...

"If you say so, I don't think you need a star to shine, you glow perfectly well without it!" He looks at the sea...while holding me closer to him..

"What am I to glow exactly?" Can you stop being so nice? We only have 96 hours left...

"You know what I mean!" then he turns to me, and looking at his flawless face makes me want to run away, and then come back and kiss him... how did we come to this? "Don't look at me like that..." my time to become red... "I don't think I can hold myself..." why are you saying that... the atmosphere has changed... it's been difficult being so close to him without wanting more... and now that I know he feels the same... it's so much harder...

"Ron..." I wait till he nods... "What is going to happen after we leave this place..."I couldn't keep that question inside me any longer... it was burning me from the moment I saw him...

"I'll go to sleep in my room and you will go back to yours..." I hate it when people play dumb... It's one of the few things that make me go crazy right away...that and hypocrisy....

I stand up and start walking away...

"Eve, come here..." not going to happen..."Eve!" yeah, cause when you scream my name I'll run back.... "Ok, ok...I'm sorry...I don't know... I don't know what will happen...Can you please come back..." No... I can't...He runs to me grabs my hand forcing me to pay attention to him while he continues "But we have 2 days left...and then we'll see... can we not talk about it now?"

That was what I was afraid from the start... the whole thing is way too complicated to last... we are not ready for it... and now I am feeling so stupid, so confirmed... Why did I have to start this situation...everything would be great if I hadn't come to that stupid place... I feel the tears ready to fall... I know I have to leave... now if possible... I don't want him to see me crying... but too late...

"Oh no...Eve, don't cry... No don't cry... Eve look at me..."I refuse to... "I am so stupid... I'm sorry...please, stop crying..."

I can't believe I am crying in front of him... I am not that weak... it's not a crying from pain, it's anger, and frustration and confirmation... but he can't understand it right now... this has to stop now... I wipe my tears...

"It's ok, I'm ok...don't worry... It's just that everything is so complicated... and I might be a little tired that's all..." how could I let him see me crying... but he doesn't pay attention to me... he seems angry... in pain...? "Ron, I'm ok... really..." he turns to look at me...his eyes are something else... the way his green big eyes search mine can make me feel so lucky, but that's not it right now... I go close to him.... we stay there in silence no one tries to speak, it's too dangerous...

After I while he opens his mouth..."My dad wants me to go with him tomorrow to one of his meetings... to 'learn' the job..." Well...it's better staying apart from each other for a while, look what the last few days did to us...

"Good..." I say and I mean it...? he takes me back to my room... and then leaves... what a crazy day... what exactly am I doing here...?

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