petrichor

nightmare drug

i felt you flowing through my veins,

taking control of every last part of me.

my senses were filled with only you,

and you gripped me hard,

but it was an illusion.

we know the down is the hardest part of the high,

but they never tell you how hard it truly is.

i put myself through rehab,

no one stayed by my side,

no one with me at every step.

i stood by myself, in pain,

and i found that the only way was through.

it was easy to get addicted,

it's exhausting getting clean.

all i want is your familiar high,

a high i never want to come down from.

but only lies spill from your wretched mouth,

lies that poison my thoughts.

i realise now, after all this time,

it wasn't a hallucination,

it was a nightmare.