(Alissa's POV)
Jc came over about an hour after I cut. The doorbell rang as I was putting on my sweatpants.
"One sec!" I yelled.
A minute later, I was at the door, slightly smiling.
"Hey beautiful." He said.
"Stop it. I know I'm not." I hit him playfully. To be truthful, I really liked it when he called me beautiful. It made me feel special, like I'm not fat, ugly, starved, scarred, or suicidal in any way.
"So, what do you wanna do?" Jc asked, hugging me. "Do you wanna get some food?"
"Absolutely not. I'm fat enough. How bout a movie?"
"Sure. Which one?" He asked, sitting down on my couch.
I thought about it for a few minutes. "How about.... Nevermind. I don't wanna watch one."
He nodded. He knew how I felt about movies. They were so fake.
"So.... What do you wanna do?"
"Jc.... Could I ask you a question?" I asked, quietly.
He nodded.
"Why are you friends with me? I mean, I'm disgusting. I cut, I don't eat, I'm always sad..."
"I like friending people in need or who just need a friend. I don't like to see people depressed. I wanna make them happy. And you are that person." He answered.
I stood there in awe. I didn't know he could be this nice.
"So when's kaylee coming home?" He asked.
"I don't know. She and I don't talk much. We just live together and keep eachother company when we need it."
"Okay. Wanna head over to my place?"
I nodded. "Let me change first."
"Wait. Did you cut earlier?"
I hesitated. I can't lie to Jc, but I don't wanna tell the truth. I sat down next to him and sighed. "Yes. And ate a chocolate bar. I'm a terrible person."
"No, you aren't. You just don't have faith in yourself. And you should. You're amazing. Now let me see."
I looked at him skeptically. Then I pulled my pant legs up. "I'm sorry." I whispered.
He ran his fingers up my legs. "No. I'm sorry. I'm sorry that no one cared enough for you so you wanted to live the life you have. It's terrible. I'm sorry that you're so hurt you can't control yourself. I'm sorry people called you so many names you started to believe them yourself. But most of all, I'm sorry I wasn't there to save you from this."
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Save me (Jc caylen)
Fanfiction"Jc..... Help..." She croaked. "Alissa, what do you mean?" I started to panic. "I... I'm dying." I heard her sob. "Please tell me it wasn't another suicide attempt."
