The Not so Secret Secret//Jachary

Chapter 24

Zach's POV

This is wrong. I shouldn't be dating Jack. I shouldn't be dating a boy. I shouldn't be so f*cking in love with a boy.

This is so wrong...but still...so right.

What am I ever gonna do?

"I'm going out." I told Jonah and Daniel who were outside on YouNow.

"To where?" Jonah asked, looking up.

"Why do you care? You aren't my mom."
I muttered.

"Because your my bandmate and one of my best friends."

"Well you should stop it because it's annoying. I'm tired of you acting like your in charge here because your NOT!"

"I was just asking Zach you don't have to get angry. I'm just concerned about you. You haven't been acting like normal."

"Pfft, shut up." I said squinting my eyes at him.

"You can go where you like Zach, but you need to fix something or this band will fall apart. I know you love Jack so why don't you act like it? Who cares what anyone else thinks? If I had to chose between having hate but having Daniel or not having hate and not having Daniel I would chose the hate because he is more important than dealing with hate. You guys can fix this but forcing yourself away from Jack because some people say it's wrong and bad is only going to make the situation worse." Jonah said.

He's right.

I turned around and went inside to the front door and took my skate board and started to ride down the street.

I need to find some place to think. I have too much on my mind right now.

I went downtown and into a dark alleyway and stopped by some trash cans. I leaned against the wall and dropped my skated board and let myself slide down the wall, tucking my knees up to my chest.

Then, I cried. Just cried. That's all I could do. But not what I wanted to do.

I wanted to be with Jack. Cuddling with him and and showering him with kisses. His soft whisper tickling my ears with promises of love.

Why do I do this to myself?

All those thoughts and memories, being in the pool with Jack and that girl who filmed us and the time Jack saved me from attacking girls all those months ago when we first started dating...

This only made me cry more though. All this was just too much to handle. I couldn't live like this anymore.

I'm so tired of this not so secret secret.