BAD BOY REP // MIN YOONGI

23.

A soft velvet-like voice whispered, "get up". My eyes opened in an instant and a sharp pain shot right through my neck like a bullet. I realized that I'd slept in the hospital chairs the whole night and it was the cause of my neck pain, that started my day right off with a bang.

Once my eyes were fully open, Jimin's small head came into sight. He smiled brightly with tousled hair, looking like the cutest baby boy. Why was he so happy though?

"Get up, Ji Eun! Yoongi got out of surgery about two hours ago, he's in his room!" Jimin announced beamingly. My eyes widened and I stood immediately to face Jimin.

"He's out?!" I exclaimed, grabbing Jimin's arm. He nodded with a laugh and directed me to the elevator. We quickly hurried in and reached Yoongi's floor, scurrying to his room.

My heart raced as Jimin and I approached Yoongi's room, I felt scared to face the boy who risked his life for me.

"Jimin-" he stopped his hand from pulling the handle after I called his name. Jimin turned around and faced me worriedly, his hand still resting on the door handle.

"What's wrong?" He asked cautiously. I bit my lip, hesitant to answer.

"I'm scared to see him." I blurted after a minute of silence. Jimin's expression softened as he let a smile play on his full lips.

"Ji Eun, why are you afraid of him sometimes?" His soft smile never left his face. I frowned, unable to give an answer as to why. I took a deep breath in and tucked my hair back, preparing myself to go inside.

"Come on," Jimin insisted as he opened the door. We walked in to a large room, and I was almost blinded by the light shining through the large window at the front. It was in that moment I noticed the hospital bed that Yoongi lay in, and my heart skipped a beat.

I slowly sauntered towards his bedside, and sat on the small stool that was placed by his arm. As my eyes fell upon his sculptured face, I noticed how drained Yoongi was. His skin was pale as sugar, and the soft pink tint on his lips was barely visible anymore. It pained me greatly to see Yoongi in this state and it was my fault, there was no denying that.

"The doctors said he's gonna be out for a while, the blood loss was significant and it's made him pretty weak. But there's no need for you to worry too much, Ji Eun. I know that you're blaming yourself for this, but you shouldn't. Nothing's your fault." Jimin reassured standing behind me, placing a hand on my shoulder. I dropped my gaze from Yoongi to my lap, contemplating Jimin's words.

"I feel like, I've only made things worse for Yoongi by constantly being with him. Nothing good has come out of it, and it makes my entire existence feel like a sin sometimes," I paused, shutting my eyes for a brief second.

Jimin took a step to my side and crouched down to meet my eyes. His expression was disapproving and it seemed like he had a lot to say to me.

"Listen, if Yoongi were awake right now, he'd say the same thing that I'm about to say. You are extremely special, Ji Eun. Especially to Yoongi. You haven't caused this to him in any way, okay? So don't beat yourself up, since he's going to be alright. You aren't a bad person at all, Ji Eun. Yoongi is really lucky to have you in his life, because he needs someone supportive like you. Just stay by his side and everything will get better. "

Jimin's eyes remained focused on mine, and I turned my gaze away. Was Jimin speaking the truth? Did Yoongi feel lucky to have me? I had no idea what to believe in that moment, everything just felt so alien to me. Jimin rested a hand on my knee as he smiled sweetly.

"Ji Eun, don't be so sad. You know how Yoongi gets when someone does something that he doesn't approve of, right? And if he saw you like this, he'd be pretty angry!" Jimin teased, causing me to let a smile escape my lips. Jimin was right, in this moment I had to be strong for Yoongi. It would be the only thing that would get me through this hell of a time.