That perfect was mine.

Chapter 9

We stare hard and long at each other?

I ask agin "what?" I just can't believe it. I'm pretty sure he's not lying cause when he jokes he usually can't stay straight for this long. I just can't loose him right now, I can't.

"I'm in love with you okay? I can't stop thinking about you, I can't. Sometimes I remember one of your stupid comments and I can't stop hearing it in my head. I love when you smile, or the fact that you can't mix your drink with your food, or how you can do killer burps. I love the way you just look at things differently then others, your more wise and careing about things then others. Like when we where helping violet that one day in the backyard, you would not let me pick off a flower from the tree cause you said it hurts them, and when I did you plucked a strand of my hair and Said "when you pick something of a plant it's like pulling off a hair from someone's head" and the little giggle you did after. I can't stop thinking about everything that involves you. Like when we met or how I tripped you In the hallway and you chased me down all the way to the 3rd building from the office, just to get me back. Your just so amazing and I know it's hard to think that your best friend loves you, but I do and I don't expect for you to feel the same I just wanted you to know. I can't hold it in forever."

He just looks at the road as if nothing happen, as if he Haden't said anything at all. Tears swell up in my eyes but I hold them back cause I don't cry in front of friend in front of people I just don't it's not who I am, even though I'm not exactly sure who I am. But I don't cry in front of someone I care for. "That's the sweetest thing anyone has ever said to me ever. I appreciate it. I love you too just not in the same way. But I want you to know is that I can't I just can't loose you okay. Maybe someday I will love you more or deeper but that's gonna take a while. But you can't just say that and walk out the door like everybody else-"

He grabs my arm, "I'm NOT GOING ANYWHERE. And I'm insulted you compared me to everyone else, cause I'm afraid you haven't noticed but I'm sure as hell ain't normal." He laughs and let's go.

Im happy he faded the awkward ness. He's good at That, good at comforting people in times of Desperation. "Whatever I'm not normal ether my friend." I smile back at him.

***

Me and Noah Returned to our normal selfs and we really don't let this whole "I love you" thing make stuff awkward.

He pulled up to this arcade called, The "oh-fishle, gaming place"

I look From the sign to him, and just laugh.

"What" he snickers

"That's so lame"

"What is? The arcade?" He seems disappointed.

I laugh harder, "no the name, the oh- fish" I pause for dramatic affect. And to be stupid. "Le, gaming place. Are there fishing games in there?" I drag each word out so he understand. "Do you understand? Now"

"Haha very funny, I'm not that stupid, but yea it's a weird name for the arcade, so who cares Ariel is a mermaid that swims around half naked, for all we know she could be a stripper." He laughs, I punch him. " do You have something you would to confess Ariel." He raises an eyebrow at me.

"Can we just go" I chuckle

"I don't know can we."his stupid smile is so fantastic. It hurts.

"You irritate me."

"Good" he laughs.

***

You know how sometimes in an ice-skating rink they usually have an arcade or at a roller rink they also have an arcade as well. But this place was just plane and simple an arcade with a food counter, and a prize booth. That's all that's it. But it's weird there's not that many people in here anyway but it feels like it's only the two of us, just us and all the noise each game makes. We have been here for about an hour, we probably spent 80 bucks on tokens, But we have maybe played each game in here twice but I know he doesn't want to leave and nether do I. I don't know if it's the fact that he loves me or that were just having a fucking blast, but it's like were in a 3rd space in the world, like a place where no one can interrupt our bond, no one can steal us away from each other. For once it feels like I'm safe.