That perfect was mine.

Chapter 11

NOAHS POINT OF VIEW.

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I watch her as sits on the floor looking for the movie. She's just so graceful with everything. Her touch, her feel and her words. She's violent, and you barely can get a compliment out of her. But she's just so amazing. I think about her all the time, I think about the way her lips would feel on mine, I think about the way she would cuddle with me. I think about her. Just everything, like the way she calls a fork a dinglehoper because she's obsessed with the little mermaid, or how she must swallow all her food in her mouth before drinking, cause she hates the way it tastes when they mix. or how she folds cloths a certain way, or how she's just so free flowing, and her self all the time. She's just like my dream right in front of my eyes. She's more of a mystery then just all out there like an open book, some parts may be free to read and But there's so Many parts locked up. I bet she's deeper then she's seems.

"NOAH" she yells. "Your gonna burn it." She laughs and places her hand on top of mine that rests on the microwave handle. She tugs a little, once it's open, she smiles at me and pulls the bag of popcorn out.

"It's gonna be hot, be carful" I tell her.

"Fuck." She cries. "Fuck fuck FUCK" and throws the bag on the counter.

"Told you" I laugh

She walks over to me with her hand in a fist and the cutest face ever. Her nose is scrunched up, her eyes are squinted and her lips are puffed out. She also has her cute little crease right between her left eyebrow and nose, it only appears when she's making a face like now, when she's mad or when she's laughing really hard.

She stares at me, with the same face. For a while. "Your adorable." I laugh and that's what set her off. She starts to claw my skin, with her freakishly long nails. Pinching my arm, leg, chest, ear and anywhere you could think. But I have learned how to stop her, tickling she hates it but she's ticklish everywhere.

I grab one of her hands and twist it around her. With my free hand I start tickling her, she struggles to be let go of while laughing. I laugh along, she starts to fade to the ground making it worse for her, I help her to the floor. I plop on her stomach siting on her moving my hands around her stomach, scrambling my fingers pressuring into her stomach, as she laughs harder and harder, a snort escapes. And that's when my world stopped, that snort, she completely let herself free, and it was the cutest thing ever. I grab both her arms, and strap them to the floor with my hands, and my face gets all up In hers, she's breathing hard and I ask "did you snort?" And I just laugh so hard I fall off her.

That's like the first embracing but adorable thing she's ever done. She's kinda sealed all her weird and unattractive things away. But those things make me fall for her even harder for her. She's always let loose but still kinda proper, as in she may talk sexual all the time, or make ugly faces. But there still proper in her book, because all the crazy embarrassing things are hiding. Like maybe her feet stink real bad, or she burps to much. I want to know those things. I want to know everything.

She gets up, puts her hand behind her head and smooths down her hair and pulls down her shirt, all with sass though. I just lay there on the floor with one knee up and my arms behind my head and watch her from and angle that I can see her perfect.

She come over to me and sits on me. Just starring at me. At my eyes, man she's beautiful. I mean I know she sees me as Noah, as a friend, as that guy that she met her first day of linkin park high school. But I want her so bad, but I will try so hard not to screw it up.

She decides to just snug her head under my neck listening to my heart beat, one of her legs between mine, instantly my arms wrap around her without a thought and were laying there on the floor Peacefully.

When she asks "do you ever think about who your gonna marry?" I can feel her jaw open and close with each word.

I sigh and as I stare at the Celling I respond " I think about the person I love the most. For now, cause I believe that you can't give up on someone you love, so I won't give up. Hopefully it will be the one I'll marry"

" you really want it don't you? "She asks.

" want what?"

" love."

" I do not want it."

"What? how come? How can't you it's amazing the whole thought of it, imagine them , there beautiful face being yours and you are hypnotized by it that's how much your in love that you can't even notice one flaw and you just love them for them. you grow further in love together and it's just to good to be true imagine that feeling. Imagine them, imagine it all." She lifts her head and we make eye contact. I let her finish because I already know what my response is that I don't want love but I need it I need that feeling of love. But I can imagine it, and I can imagine them. Because the person I love the most is right in front of me,

"I need it more then ever. But no I can't imagine it, it's just all to powerful to imagine." I say fast.

She smiles "agreed" and lays back down.

"Wanna know something?" I ask her.

"Sure." She says as she plays with my hand.

"Well my favorite think about you, or the cutest thing I can't help but notice, and the only time I find you attractive" witch is a lie I find her all attractive all the time. "Is when you get out of the shower and have your towel warped around your body and one holding your hair to dry on the top of your head, you look ridiculous, but just a little of your hair shows that little point you have on your hair line, like a faced down triangle of hair that you okay see the shape and I find that, oh my gosh the cutest fucking thing ever." I laugh she joins.

"Well do you wanna know something."

"Mhhm."

"Well my favorite thing about you is when you do that ridiculous smile, it's like a cute smile but kinda goofy, like your eyes are Squinted and then you do that smile as you shake your head, and it's just makes me happy in a way." She laughs and sighs.

"Look at me" I tell her. She dose so and I do it I squint my eyes and smile as I shake my head and she laughs.

"There it is she tells me." And pokes my nose. And then everything stopped her eyes catched mine, and it's silent our smiles fade, and it's just a safe place like this, I start leaning in for that incredible kiss I have Dreamt about until she clears her throat and sits up. It's just frustrating loving her so much I can't do anything about it, I plop my head behind her back. I sigh real deep and shut my eyes facing the floor. I felt nothing, till she turns and kisses the back of my head and whispers "sorry."