Lost in guilt

One

I woke up again safely in my room in the basement like usual. Well, not very usual. I didnt grow up here. Captain Levi ordered me to sleep here just in case I turn into a titan in my sleep. I felt drowsy, so I sat up rather slowly. I couldn't see if it was daylight or not, but I assumed it was. I moved my legs to the end of the bed, and strech my arms out and yawn.

I stood slowly, and I look in my drawer for my shirt. i slip it on, along with my tight pants and gear. It only took about a minute to walk upstairs and see the sun rising. I walk over and sit. I see a shadow rise from behind me, and i turn around and see Levi behind me.

"You're up early, Eren." Levi remarked. I nodded, looking back at him. I was still a little shocked even Captian Levi was up this early. I wanted to explain why, but i'm worried he wont want to hear my story. I start to get lost in thought, and then Levi snaps me out of it.

"Eren," he said looking at me. "You alright?" he asked. I look up at him tounnge tied for a couple seconds. I take a deep breath and think of what to say. I start with another obediant nod.

"Uh, yeah... Sorry" I replied, my hands on my thighs. "I kinda just woke up" i said looking at his face. He looked stern, stern as usual. I actually have never seen a different look on his face. "Do you always wake up this early?" I ask. He glares back at me.

"No, actually. I couldn't sleep," he said, sitting down next to me. "I had a horrible dream." He looked at me and then quickly looked away right as i saw what he saw me see. He was afraid. But it was levi. He shouldn't ever be afraid.

"I-I'm sorry. Would you like to tell me about it?" I ask. i look at his pale face and watch him sigh. He looked at me and shook his head.

"Not until you tell me why you were up so early like I am" He said, as i sighed and just shrugged my sholders like I had no idea. I look at him and smiled a bit.

"I thought it was later than now," i confessed truthfully. I sounded stupid. Though it wasn't a lie, I wanted to believe it was. He gave me a bitter look, and smirked. I have never seen him smirk before. But it suited him.

"My dream was just a remake of one of my bad childhood memories," he said. "Luckily, I'm not the only one awake." He dropped the smirk almost instantly after he spoke. "But I guess I'm okay now that I'm awake." He said snickering under his breath. I look at him again, and sigh.

"I'm glad that i am not the only one awake too" i agreed. Damn, I sounded dumb again. I took a deep breath, and looked out the window at the waking sun. "A new day means a new discovery" I said to Levi, hoping he will understand what I meant. He looked at me right as i looked at him, his eyes very small but said a lot. He nodded his head and looked out the window. I followed his gaze to see the sun climbing higher in the sky. I yawn quietly, but I still didn't feel tired. I took a quick glance at him to see that he didn't seem tired at all. Not even close to tired. But he was still in his pajamas.

"Sir?" I asked waiting for him to respond.

"Yes, Eren?" he asked sounding a little annoyed by the fact I called him sir. I examine his face a little more before I continue what I was going to say, but I forgot what it was i really had to say. "Eren?" He looks at me and i look away.

"Uh, sorry sir i forgot." Dammit, I called him sir again. I look at you again and I see him looking into my eyes as i did his. He really was intrested at what I had to say. Then I remember. "Sir, shouldn't you be getting dressed if you're not going back to sleep?" I asked him trying to convince him to give me a little time to myself for a bit. He looked at me a little confused.

"Eren, you seem so worried about me and my duties." He said looking at me suspiciously. "Are you ok?" He asked me looking me in the eye. Does he think i'm sick?

I shook my head. "no, sir. Just trying to get you up and moving," I pause to search for another reason. "I don't want you too tired anyways today, Captian." I finished and I looked away again and at the risen sun.

"No, I will be ok," He said slowly standing. "I might just get dressed, though." He walked back into his room and shut the door. I heard rustling and a little shoving as I listen to him get ready. I then stop my attention and look out the window again, looking at the green grass and the blue sky with cottony clouds srrounding it. I heard him walk out and curse under his breath. He looked down at me.

"Would you like to go on a short walk, Eren?" He asked me, looking down at my face that was now looking at his. I nod my head and got up and followed him out the large doors, to outside. It was fairly warm, but still not very hot. I guess you could say it was cool outside. I shiver a tad, and he looks at me shivering and hands me his hood. "take this," he said helping me put it on.

"Levi- uh i mean, Corpal, why are you being so kind this morning?" I asked him and I watch him gently shrug his sholders. We walked in scilence for a while but then stopped and he pointed at the ivy on the wall.

"That needs to be cut down. Ivy makes things look old and this castle must look nice. Eren, go fetch the cutters from the supply closet inside" He said gesturing to the supply closet door. I nod and I sprint to the door, and look back at him. He was staring at me as I entered the room and i retrieved the cutters. I showed them to Levi, and he pointed at the ivy. "Cut it down, Eren." He commanded and i nod my head once again. I run up to the wall and I shot myself up to the top like I was an expert with my 3dmg. I wasn't quite, but I am working on my skills.

I used the cutters and my swords to chop off the ivy. I got about half done, and I looked back at Levi, he looked at me with his arms crossed and he smirked a bit but then quickly shrugged it off. I got back to work then hopped down bringing the line with me. I landed on the large pile of ivy, and i picked some up.

"Where should this go?" I asked him, and he looks over at the trash cans all lined up together on the other side of the buiding. I rolled my eyes and took large trips to the trashcans and back, until every little leaf was gone and in the trash. "better?" I asked as I walk to the supply closet to put away the cutters.

"I guess so," He said as he walked to the supply closet door. I walked out and i saw him looking at me.

"What?" I asked. he shook his head, then we started to make our way inside. He looked at me again and i looked at him. He turned away quickly and blushed. I thought it was a little weird to catch the Corpral staring at me repeatedly. Especially when he looks away, and he blushes. Does he like me? I shrugged that thought off as quickly as I could and I look straight all the way back.