Lastly

Chapter 7

7.

the day went by slowly, but jacob said he would pick me up after school. I walk outside the building and see jacobs hair, his book bag Is on the ground right next to his car and I walk across the street to go to him.

"jacob!" I yell, he looks his head up and a familiar girl jumps up and looks behind the car. Jenna. I stop. I felt everything in my world freeze and I was trying to act like what I saw wasn't what I thought it was.

"Callie" I hear jacob say but I'm already running towards my apartment. I felt tears stream down my face while i was running. I stopped to catch a breath and sat on a nearby bench. I place my elbows on my knees and put my face in my hands. tell me this is a joke. tell me jacob was not just kissing Jenna. tell me this is all some lie. I wiped off my tears and starting walking once I got to my apartment I opened my door and threw my book bag on the couch. I went to go get sweatpants and a sports bra and put it on. i heard a knock on the door. I ignored it.

"Callie listen to me!" I hear jacob

"go the fuck away I don't even wanna talk to you." I yell through the door

"just let me explain" jacob says

"i would rather not, just leave" I lay my back against my wall.

"fine, what about our relationship?" jacob asks

"i don't know give me time to think" I say and I hear footsteps walking away, they soon get quieter and quieter. i slide myself down the wall and sob. "why" I hit the floor. I try and catch my breath but it's so hard. i reach for my phone and dial Nash's number, he answers after the third ring.

"hello?" he says

"h-h-he cheated" I manage to say

"jacob?" Nash says loudly

"yes" I let out a few tears

"I'll be over in a minute" Nash hangs up. I lay down next to the wall and cry. thinking how could he even cheat on me. with Jenna especially. my eyes started to burn from my mascara until I heard a knock on the door

"Callie it's nash" I hear

"it's unlocked" I shout and hear the door open. Nash falls to his knees next to me

"Callie" he says in shock

"he kissed Jenna.." I bit my lip trying not to cry.

"you can cry" Nash says, as if he knew what I was thinking. I start crying, tears still streaming down my face. Nash lays with me on the floor and puts his arm around my waist. "it's okay" Nash sits up and tells me to get up on his lap. I sat with his torso in between my legs. "come here" Nash pulls me close to him, and I sob into his shoulder. "he's a douche, he doesn't deserve someone as beautiful as you" Nash plays with my hair. I finally stop crying and lift my head up. and look at Nash.

"I'm so sorry I got mascara on your shirt" I say trying to rub it off

"it's fine, all I care about is if you're okay"

"thank you." I say

"no problem" Nash rests his forehead against mine like jacob used to do. no Callie don't think of jacob not now I think to myself

"kiss me" I say

"what" Nash says surprised. I put my hands on his jawline and pulled his face towards mine. our lips touched. Nash put his hands on waist and pulled me towards him. I was still sitting on his lap on the floor. Nash pushed me down on the floor and now he's on top of me. I had my hands on Nash's chest. i brought my hands up to his hair and ran my hands through his hair. Nash let go of the kiss.

"Callie have you and jacob even broke up?" he asked

"I don't know" I say

"then we shouldn't be doing this" Nash gets off of me

"I'm sorry" I say and stand up.

"no this isn't your fault"

"I kissed you" I tuck a hair behind my ear

"I kissed you back" Nash says

"I should probably just talk to jacob.." I blurt out

"if you want no ones making you"

"I'll do it.. where would he be?" I ask nash

"depends did he say he was sorry a lot?" nash asks

"I mean he ran to my apartment"

"he's at the bar I'll show you" Nash and I walked outside my apartment. "wait" Nash stopped me. Nash wiped the mascara from my eyes. and then went to his car. Nash drove for about 5 minutes until we stopped in front of place called joes. we walked inside and jacob was sitting on a stool with a beer in his hand. "I'll be over here" Nash points to the booth while I walk up to jacob.

"hey." I said sitting next to him.

"I thought we were over apparently" jacob says

"I'm giving you a chance to explain" I tell him

"Jenna kissed me. I tried to push her off she didn't budge." Jacob took another sip of his beer.

"you should've pushed her harder" I say

"Callie im sorry and you know it" he said

"I'm not completely sure you're sorry" I roll my eyes

"oh my. Callie Alexandra Heed, I am in absolute love with you. love is a word I don't throw around." jacob says

"okay" I look at the floor

"so are we still together" jacob lifts my chin up.

"yes" I smile and kiss him. I felt guilty kissing nash, but I won't tell jacob he would never forgive me. "Nash brought me here, so I'm going to go sit with him, wanna come?" I ask

"sure" jacob grabs his beer and walks over with me to nash

"thank you for bringing here" jacob says

"anytime.." Nash didn't look jacob in the eyes, I could tell he was feeling guilty too. i sit down next to jacob and wrap my hand in his.

"so. how was your first day of sophomore year.." I say trying to break the silence

"fine" Nash says

"good because I get to see you" jacob kisses me cheek. you could see how awkward Nash felt. he just looked down he couldn't even look jacob in the eye.

***

jacob dropped me off at my apartment and I grabbed my journal

June 27th, 2014

sorry I have wrote in a while. boy problems I guess. I feel horrible. I am dating this guy named jacob, and I cheated on him. because I thought he cheated on me with a different girl. I know dad would be upset but nash was just there, not jacob. jacob was out drinking his problems, nash didn't blow me off he came and put me in his arms. then took me to see jacob. I know jacob is sorry, but some reason I feel like jacob knows. about Nash and I, or what we did. Nash and I are even attracted to eachother.. I think.

this is bad, I shouldn't be attracted to two guys, last time this happened I broke my nose. or almost I think. I feel like something bad will happen this time. like if jack gets involved. I was thinking about calling jack today. seeing what he had to say, I miss him. to be honest, we had a relationship, not like dating but we flirted. he thought we were dating I guess or else he wouldn't have gotten so over protected. well I have school tomorrow and I should probably go to bed and get studying by tomorrow. great talk diary. haha.

- Calliope

**im on my way to Tennessee right now. so I might not update for the next 3 to 4 days. but a new chapter should be up by tuesday**

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