Abyss || Ashton Irwin

-1-Alyssa-

I've lost my mind.

I kept quiet about about the incident two summers ago, but it's only been getting worse. I start seeing more and more figures and I can't tell

who's really there and who's not.

I feel like Ive already lost all sense of reality around me. My parents have seemed to notice this too.

So now we're on the way to.. Um.. I don't actually know where they are taking me.

"Mom? Where are we going?" I ask.

"We're not going Alyssa, you are"

"That still doesn't answer my question Mom, where am I going?"

"Your going to get some help."

That silenced me for the rest of the car ride. I sat there wondering what kind of help they meant. Am I injured? No. Am I troubled? No. Am I flunking? Possibly, but I don't think that's what this is about.

I had one last resort to where I believed I was going but I didn't want my belief to be true.

"Welcome to the San Diego Mental Institution" the sign read as we entered the white brick building. We approached the front desk to be greeted by a younger lady smiling brightly at us.

Why was she smiling she works at a Mental Hospital?

My thoughts are becoming more and more pronounced I can feel them take over every bit of sanity I have (or have left if there is any left)

I was led to the room I was going to stay in. I was greeted by the plain white walls and flooring and white hospital bed

They couldn't stand to at least have some color in this place?

The thought of having to stat in such a plain burned in my brain but I would have to learn to live with it.

I would have to call this place home for the next couple if months or how ever long I had to stay in the hellhole. I just never thought I would ever find my self in a mental hospital. Still here I am dreading every waking moment of my new life in this fucking hospital.

I can't seem to get the thought of me being here I lay on my bed with my black duffel bag in the corner of the room. I lay there for a while just lost in my thoughts and then I sat up to be greeted by a familiar face.

One face that I last saw two years ago that helped me end up here.

He looked happy and cheery exactly like he was when I first saw him.

He was the reason I was here.

He was the reason I was lost of all the expression I could prosper.

He was the reason of my downfall.

He was the reason I wanted to die.

"Just fuck off and leave me alone your the reason I'm here in the fucking first place!!" I screamed at him. Gaining a few strange looks from people passing by.

He just simply stood up and walked out of the room leaving me alone.

Like he always does.

(A:N)

So yeah that was the first chapter I know it's short but it will get longer I promise you. I plan on adding more dialogue cause I know I suck at it so yeah! I hope y'all like this book I plan on updating it frequently but I will probably fail. An wow Alyssa has got a lot shit right now. I feel her. Don't forget to vote for this story!

Julia xx