a Letter for Jonghyun

nineteen

The following day, before I go to school, I opened my SNS again.

My instagram update:

"I don't know anymore. I slept and thinking that it was all a dream but I woke up and it's still all over the net and my dash. I don't know what to write but I will always be a shawol and support them as a group and individually."

So it was real.

I need to compose my self before going to school. I need to pretend that I am happy in front of my students.

But right after I stepped in our class room. All my students were asking me questions about him.

My instagram update:

"That moment when you went here in my country for a concert, I said to my self that I will work hard and earn more money to buy more concert tickets just to see the FIVE of you performing and enjoying the stage with us shawols. But I didn't see this coming. I never knew that was the FIRST and LAST time I will see five shining stars onstage.

I still have a heavy heart. It may be sound funny but my students comforted me today because they know how much I love SHINee as a group and individually."

They know their teacher well. They know that I love SHINEE ever since.

I just smiled at them with sad eyes. But they knew. They knew I am not happy at all.

I stopped my self from crying though everyone of them are comforting me and even tell some jokes.