Supernatural Little Sister Imagines

//Not Okay\\

Requested by happiestpeachh and imagine you're upset and your brothers try to cheer you up.

Usually you would be up making breakfast for your brothers, but you knew that today was going to be one of those days. You hated the days where it took everything in you to smile, and how you couldn't process your feelings so you just laid there numb.

It took all your energy to even say a word. Your brothers tried everything but they didn't understand which is okay, but you wished someone would understand. Yeah people say they get it but do they really?

You sigh turning over on your side. You stare at the wall with a blank expression on your face. You haven't cried in months which you knew was unhealthy, but every time you tried to cry nothing came out.

Thoughts swam around your brain making it hard to concentrate. You just wanted it all to end; the thoughts, the pain, the constant feeling of no hope, you just wanted it to end.

A small knock snaps you from your thoughts.

"Hey baby you up," you can hear Sam softly ask opening your door.

You laid there motionless hoping that he would go away.

"Is she still asleep," you hear Dean ask in the distance.

"Yeah I think so. Let's just let her sleep in," sam whispers closing the door once more.

You reposition yourself so you face the door. You hold your pillow close to you closing your eyes again. You didn't really believe in prayer but you needed all the help you could get. You took a deep breath and prayed to whatever you believed in.

You prayed for strength to get out of bed, you prayed for a feeling to dominate the others. As you laid there in stiff silence you still felt the same. You sighed and sat up rubbing your eyes yawning. You grab your jacket wrapping it around yourself.

You weren't cold but you felt more self conscious of your body than usual. You take baby steps towards the door second guessing your decision. It's easier to just fake a smile then to explain why you're sad.

You close your eyes practicing your fake smile. You take a deep breath and step out from the comfort of your room. You walk down the hallway and into the kitchen. The smell of pancakes make your stomach ache.

"Good morning sunshine we made some pancakes," sam smiles setting down a plate beside him.

If you passed breakfast they would start to worry so you sucked it up and started to eat the pancakes. With each bite your hand became heavier and you felt the pancakes make their way back up.

You just smiled at your brothers.

"I have to use the restroom real fast I'll be back," You rush to the bathroom vomit coming up your throat.

You lean over the toilet and let it all out. You can hear your brothers footsteps echo through the hall. The door opens and your brothers rush in kneeing beside you. Sam holds your hair while Dean rubs your back.

"It's one of those days isn't it," Sam softly asks handing you a wet rag.

You just nod wiping your mouth with the rag. Sam exchanges a look with Dean helping you up from the toilet. They lead you back to the living room setting you down on the couch. Dean picks up your favorite movie putting it into the DVD player.

Sam cuddles next to you scratching your back. He kisses your head as you lay next to your big brother.

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After the movie Dean hooks up his phone to the stereo. You grin as he plays one of his favorites from his playlist. He comes over to you forcing you up from the comfort of the couch.

He seats along with you then spins you. You smile laughing as he dips you. Sam comes over and picks you up spinning. You laugh when he sets you down taking a bow. You stand on his feet and he dances around the living room smiling at you.

Dean grabs you throwing you back on the couch. After the song ends dean collapses on the recliner pretending he's having a heart attack.

You jump in his lap like you use to when you were younger. He wraps his arms around your waist looking up to Sam.

"Let's go get some ice cream," sam suggest grabbing his jacket.

"If only we can get pie," dean taps your side and you stand up.

"When don't we get pie," sam rolls his eyes playfully throwing the keys to him.

"You know what, let's let Y/N drive," dean tosses you the keys winking.

You chuckle running to the car. You always wanted to drive baby ever since you were born.
You jump in the drivers seat and wait for your brothers to join you. When they arrive you speed off down the old country road.

You go to your favorites ice cream place you guys found when you were only 4. You all get out heading inside the shop.

You order your usual and go sit back outside on the impala. Your brothers sit on each side of you. You lean your head on Deans arm smiling and actually meaning it.

"Thanks for today," you speak giving them a thoughtful look.

"We're always with you bug," Dean nudges you smiling.

"Yeah we're with you until the end,"

Little did you know the end came very soon...