I was now walking behind the school counsellor on the way to her office. I started thinking of ways i could have ended up in this situation. maybe its because i missed way too many days of school this year? that must be why I'm here there no other reason. the incident with Camilla happened weeks ago. I came back too reality by noticing the sign which read "counsellor's office" on the door. i walked into the room and sat down on the brightly coloured yellow chair across from her desk. I was focused to set up straight but the uncountable structure of the chair. when miss Reed had sat down on the Office chair and faced me i begin to justify my absence. but i didn't get the chance to finish. she cut me off by saying ''dear i have some bad news'' she huffed in defeat. shit! I'm now thinking to myself my grade? is this what it's about? i wont be able to make it to graduation! she started talking again. '' your mother has been in a car accident . she didn't make it sweetie I'm so sorry". those where the last few words I Heard before i blacked out and I Slid down off of that awful chair.
I woke up inside my own bed, in my own room. so this could only mean I was dreaming. I exhaled harshly and snuggled my way back into my sheets? Just as I found a comfortable position too lay in I hard a knock at my bedroom door. "Come in" I said annoyed. Ethan walked into my room with an apologetic look on his face. I was confused at first, but then I realized that my mom dying wasn't just me dreaming. It was reality. I felt the life drain from my face and my body go numb. I just looked up at Ethan with glossy eyes before crying uncontrollably. I couldn't contain my yelps and tears from escaping my body. I wasn't able to breed besides from the gasp of air I take when I felt Like i was going to pass out from shortage of air.
Ethan took me in his arms and hugged me tightly. The water from my eyes stung my cheeks, as I cry deeply on Ethan's shoulder. He glides his hand up and down my back to make me feel A sense of calmness, but it didn't work. I was crying for none stop all night long. How could I not my mother is dead. The last of my family is dead, and I'm undead because I tryed too die. My life is massed up. I couldn't even say goodbye to my mother because she didn't have time to listen to me when she was alive. "Rose are you all right?" Ethan asked concerned. I just nuzzled my head into his chest not wanting to talk to him or anyone. I just want to be with my mother and grandmother so badly. I miss them more then I thought possible.
as i was suffocating in all of my emotions, i realised i didn't have to put myself thought this, well not for a while at lest. i could numb myself for a week or two. by turning off my emotions. Ethan and Grayson will understand. its not like i will be any different, i won't be sad any more that's it, right? I'm so sick of feeling sorry for myself. sorry for my grandmother death, sorry for Camilla bullying me, sorry for Ryan abusing me, sorry for the vampire blood inside of me and now sorry for my mom's death. i just want every thing to stop. i felt another tear trickle down my face. I'm so use of crying. isn't that a reason in its self to give myself a break of the black sea which is my emotions that is casing me too sinking? i believe it is. i going to do this for myself! i need too, i deserve too.
i pulled both of my legs out of the bed and then unwrapped Ethan's arms for my shoulder with out waking him. i hoped out of the springy mattress and started too make my way to the bathroom. i turned on the light and walked in. i looked at myself in the mirror and notice how pale i have become and also how swollen my eye where from my crying. at lest I'm not crying now. knowing i wont be like this for much longer helps me hold back the tears for the moment. i looked into my own eyes thou the mirror and took a deep breath as i made sure i was still on bored with my decision, i was. i thought about what Ethan said which was just knowing how too flip the switch too my humanity on and off when we those. so i closed my eyes and searched for my escape, and straight away i found it. it was just there. i could feel it. i knew how too control it. i could not explain how even if i tryed i just knew what too do. and i didn't hesitate too temperately fix my problems. and when i did i was a new person, and it felt amazing.
hi guys i just typed this chapter out on my laptop instead of my phone. so if there is any grammar or spelling errors that is why. but i did try to fix them best i could. let me know what you think of the story so far and if you want the P.O.V to be on ethane's or Grayson more often. or if you want the too stay in the brain of Rose all the time. thanks for reading! xx
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Survival E.D + G.D
VampiroA girl named Rose was being bullied and laughed at by almost every one and one day she had enough. She goes to drastic measures to try find a solution. But right before she knows he solution turn out to be a lot different to what she expected.
