I honestly don't know the words to describe how I feel right now. I feel broken and hurt that someone would take him away from me someone that I love so much someone that I care about so much. He's helped me with so much in life. He's one of the few reasons I'm still breathing right now and I don't know how to live without him. I've always wanted at tattoo on the back of my neck of a date in Roman numerals but I never knew what to get. Now I know what I'm getting. And me and my older sister are getting matching tattoos for X because we both love him. When I found out he was shot I was speechless that someone would do that to him. And I was hoping he was gonna be okay and not even a whole 10 minutes later he was pronounced dead. I was sitting down on my phone and just started crying and my sister was asking what happened and I threw my phone and she looked at it and started crying. My dad kept asking us why we were crying. I still have a headache from crying. I don't want to wake up tomorrow but I know Jahseh wouldn't want that. I just wish he didn't have to leave so early he was only 20. He had so much love to spread. Deadass 3 hours before he died he posted about doing charity work on his ig story. Like who would kill someone so genuine and inspiring and so full of love. My heart is broken and I don't think anything can fix this.
