You Found Me. (Jack Gilinsky FanFic)

My Story.

Layla POV.

'Here we go' I thought to myself. As I was about to open up to Jack I had a million things running through my head. The biggest one was why I had found it so hard to open up to anyone new or even just to trust someone. I had built up a wall so high that I had caught myself in it. The only people that I would allow to come within it were my mum and the four girls.

Meeting these boys, I think, has actually been a bit of a blessing. All of them, Jack in particular, had helped me trust again and they didn't even know the effect they were having on me. They showed me that I can pull my wall down sometimes and won't always get hurt. They were all really good guys.

The day was heading for sunset so the beach was pretty empty. Jack and I sat on the sand, side by side. I sat with my knees bent, close to my chest, with my arms around them. Jack sat on his right thigh with his arm supporting him and turned little bit so he was facing my side as I looked out to the water.

"I only want you to tell me if you're up for it." he told me

"No, I want to. I think I owe it to you to be honest." I said and he nodded

There was a few seconds of silence.

"I honestly don't even know how to start or what to say. I've never explained this to anyone except the girls and I was a wreck when that happened, I can't even remember what I said between sobs." I said with a forced giggle

"Just explain it however you feel most comfortable."

I turned to my left to look at Jack who was already watching me. I gave him and small grin and he returned it. I turned so I was now facing him instead of the water and began trying to explain a situation that had caused me so much pain for the past 3 years. 

"So you told me that you have been hurt by your dad..."

"There's a story that leads to that."

"Ohk" he said, moving closer to me and held my hands

"So that guy in the picture is my brother Caleb. He is 4 years older than me and was  honestly my bestfriend, even over the girls. We were just so close ever since the day I was born. We had your typical family unit and as far as I was concerned our family was perfect. We were both really close to our parents aswell but Caleb was my dad's prized possession, and I was fine with that. I'm not going to lie, I was a daddy's girl and my dad loved me just as much but he had a special place in his heart for Caleb. Ya'know, he was just an extremely proud parent and I didn't blame him. Caleb was an exceptional footballer, he was a straight A student and he had such a great future ahead of him. He was the perfect son...."

I stopped for a second just to take a breath. This was harder than I thought. I hadn't told anyone about this besides the girls and that was years ago. I looked at Jack though and that just calmed my nerves auotmatically.

"Hey it's ohk. Just take your time" he said to me and I continued

"He was out with his friends one night and he told my parents he would be home by 11:00pm, so 11:00 came and we thought nothing of it but then it just kept getting later and later so my parents stayed up just to make sure he got home safe. My parents were calling him but he wasn't answering which was when they started getting worried. So 12:00 rolled around and our home phone began to ring....I'll never forget the look my parents gave each other before my dad answered it. They knew something was wrong..." I said looking out to the ocean and the sunset

"We were called to the hospital and the silence in the car ride there was deafening....Once we got there the news was broken to us that he had been in a bad car accident and was gone almost instantly. My parents had to go and identify the body and of course it was him. My mum came back out and just dropped to the ground in tears. I had never seen her so upset and I had never seen my dad's face so stone cold. I ran over to my mum and just held her. Being a 15 yr old at the time, you just feel so hopeless. My whole world came crashing down that day and there was absolutely nothing I could do about it." I said looking back at Jack

I tear flew down my face and Jack wiped it away, moving even closer.

"The days leading up to his funeral was horrible. My house had never been so quiet. There was always noise from me and Caleb....We were always doing something. I kept expecting to wake up and he would be there again and it would all have just been some sick and twisted dream.....But that never happened. He never came back. My mum was a wreck, my dad hadn't spoken to either of us and I hadn't even cried yet....until his funeral. His funeral was when I think it all became real for me and I just lost all control of myself. My best friend was gone and he was never coming back. I never even got to say goodbye..." I told him

"What happened with your dad?" he whispered

"The day after the funeral we all realised that even though we are still in the mourning process, we need to start moving on. My dad obvously realised too that we had to move on, he just decided to move on without us. I'll never forget, me and my mum were sitting on the lounge and my dad came over to us and just glared at us with this cold face. Absolutely no emotion. He told us he was leaving and when my mum asked why, he told us that he couldn't live here anymore knowing that his son was gone and never coming back and that he couldn't live where there was just reminders of him everywhere. He knew it was hurting me and my mum just as much but he chose to be selfish and leave us with it. He then turned to me and said, 'And I could never continue to live here knowing that the wrong child died.'..." I told him, finding it hard to get it out

I heard a little gasp from Jack as I shut my eyes with tears somewhat beginning to pour out.

"Since then I've never been able to trust anyone else. If I can't trust my own father then who the hell can I?"

Jack moved as close to me as he could so that our legs were entwined and he pulled me into a long, embraceful hug.

 I looked up into his eyes again - only centimeters away from each other - and I saw something I didn't expect to see. A single tear ran out the side of Jack's eye.

"Hey, don't you start crying on me." I sniffed and wiped it away

He laughed.

"It's just I can't even imagine the pain you must have gone through Layla. I couldn't even begin to wonder how I would cope if I lost one of my sisters."

"It's been 3 years today. He would have been 22." I told him

"I don't understand how your dad could be so horrible to you and then just walk out on your mum." he said sounding frustrated

"I honestly never expected that out of him. He was never like that. I haven't spoken to him since that day so I have no idea where he is, who he's with or where he has ended up in life."

"He doesn't deserve you or your mother in his life."

"You just need to know that you can trust me Layla. I would never intentionally hurt you. I care about you way too much." he said as he tucked a piece of hair behind my ear

"I know." I almost whispered and smiled

We repositioned so our legs were out in front of us so I held onto Jack's arm and rested my head on his shoulder as we watched the sunset.

"I'm glad you trusted me enough to open up to me Layla." he said to me

"I'm glad I did too........I think you would have loved him Jack. I think you two would have got along really well." I told Jack

"Well let's hope that he's watching down on you now so he can see me telling his sister that I think I'm falling hard for her." he said

There was a moment of silence as he looked down at me and smiled. It took me a second to realise what he had said but as soon as it clicked, I had hadn't felt that happy in a while.

I sat up so I was facing him again.

"Me too." was all I said

He closed the gap between us and there was that feeling again.

Words can't explain how grateful I am to have Jack in my life. He was helping me in a way I didn't think possible.

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