The Hookup

Chapter Fourteen

As I lie, tracing patterns on Buffy's chest, I realized that he was all I need. Alex had never sexually aroused me like Buffy has. Alex had always had sex with me, but Buffy had just made love to me. That experience felt like no other. I have a family and it is now in jeapordy because I fell in love with another man, well had been in love with another man. It was all complicated.

" How am I going to tell Alex?" Buffy had a hand on my lower back. "Tell him what?" He questioned. He stared up at the ceiling, His forehead glistened with sweat. "That I'm not in love with him." Buffy shifted on top of me. His hands were on both sides of my head. " Don't worry about him. Right now, it's you and me. He carassed my lips with his. My hands rested on his neck. He lifted me up by my waist. As he re-entered, I felt myself falling more in love with this man.

"I'll call you and pick you up tomorrow. Be safe. I love you." He whispered against my lips. " I love you." And with the final sentence, I got in my car and headed to my home.

I walked in seeing Alex sitting against our bedroom door. His cheeks were covered in tears and his jaw was clenched. I watched as tears streamed down his face. "Kir... I know you were with him." A tear dropped off his face. " I know you cheated." He turned away. He sighed as he walked to back room. I sighed as I went to see what he was doing.

Alex faced the wall, leaned on it. " Why'd you fucking do it?" He sobbed slightly. " I love you... so fucking much. I wanted to marry you, live in this house, surrounded by our kids and-" He turned to face me. He met my gaze. " all that fairytale shi-it. I'm so in love with you I just can't-" He sighed. " Alex, he made love to me. Everytime we're intimate, it's just pointless hardcore sex. I want to feel something Alex. You caused him to leave me. You just... I'm not..." He rubbed a hand through his hair. " You're not in love with me like I am with you."

I stepped towards him and wiped some tears. I nodded, agreeing with him. He reached down to kiss me. His lips were not Buffy's. "Please Kir don't do this. Please. " I watched the broken look in his eyes. " Alex,... I'm in love with him." He pressed his head against mine. "Please." I felt his tears on my cheeks. " I'm sorry... for everything. I'll leave tomorrow." I walked to the bedroom. I layed across the bed. I slept next to my heartbroken ex. It all seemed to play out. He now feels my hurt when Buffy left me. Now I will be living with Buffy. Alex and I will split custody over Este. Everything will be fine... I hope.