Why Won't You Love Me ✦ Lashton [✓]

part 15-surprise pt. 2

this chapter is 1,539 words long so enjoy the read xx

ash: 30 minutes x

i panicked even though i was clean and dressed and keep smelling myself to make sure i smelt good, and i even stole some of michael cologne.

i decided to listening too some music, to calm myself down.

i checked my phone and saw it was 6:30 and i had no new texts from ashton and i'm afraid he ditched. so i slumped in a chair in my room, and around 6:33 my phone went off.

ash: i'm driving over to the house at a red light.

luke: drive safely, i love you.

ash: i know, x :)

a x was all ashton ever gave luke about him loving him. luke was starting to think this 'surprise' was ashton breaking up with him, and slumped more into his chair, and tried not to cry.

but he couldn't help the tear that slipped down his face. but he quickly wiped it away when he heard a knock at the front door.

luke checked himself in the mirror, and walked down to the front door to only see, michael.

"where's ash?"

"it's a surprise silly now take this and come in the car."

i walked down to the car and michael opened my door for me.

"you didn't have too?"

"ashton's orders."

"oh."

i sat down in the car and michael came and started driving.

"so you need to read the note out loud so i can hear."

"fine okay."

i folded the note and saw it was two sided.

i started reading it.

dear luke,

hi it's ashton. and i just wanted to give you a few warnings, 1) i'm not breaking up with you. 2) this isn't bad news, well it isn't to me and it shouldn't be to you.

i know we've been through a lot me being the asshole i was and hurt you. and i'm sorry for all of that. i know that sorry can't make up for how much i hurt you mentally but also physical.

in my drunken phase i hit you and i made you not trust me and be scared in which i totally fucking deserve and i'm sorry.

and i'm sorry that i was always wanted to be loved after midnight. i was scared i guess? i just i fucked up so much and it fucks me till this day.

you were so scared of me, and even resorted to calum for love.

"you and calum?"

"calum and i kissed that's it."

"good."

i laughed and started reading again.

and that night that i cried my eyes out for hours in hours getting rid of all the guilt and you forgave me. and it felt good.

and i know michael will probably beat me for realising i hit you. and i can't blame him. calum slapped me across the face, and i know you didn't do anything cause you were scared.