I got back to my room and I had no idea what I just did. Me and Hayden were so close from having sex! I can't believe I just risked that!
I just sat on my bed as I regretted what I just did, and Hayden was right that I will regret it. I closed my eyes, remembering how he touched me. I laid on my bed, pulled the blanket over me, rolled up my dress, and lowered my thong. I started remembering how Hayden touched me and I started to touch myself. I moaned, and moaned, then I felt another pair of hands on my private. I immediately got scared and opened my eyes to see Hayden. I smiled in relief and he sat next to me.
"You missed me huh baby girl?" He whispered as he put his hand over mine; which was on my wet private area.
"Mm, of course. Daddy," and that turned him on, and I knew it effected him and saw a bulge grow in his pants, "Oh, I see my words effected you daddy." I flirted as I planted a gentle kiss on his begging lips.
"No, we can't do this. I know you're gonna regret this. I'm gonna leave." And with that, he was gone. I felt like I may have lost him, forever. But I really didn't know if I did.
I just fixed myself up, and took a shower. I really didn't know if someone was eating you out means you lost your virginity to them, because I was homeschooled and was never properly taught the 'birds and the bees' talk. I regretted my actions today.
4 weeks later...
I still haven't gone out of my room once. Not ONCE! I didn't let visitors in, nor did I let my friends or ladies come in. Only Sarah because she was dying my hair. No, my hair isn't naturally brown to blonde. It was just brown. But I made them lighter and I love it.
I haven't been eating, barley drinking water, and I have just been running on my treadmill in my room. I have just been crying for my actions a month ago, I regretted what I did to Hayden. Putting him in that situation.
I don't know what to do. How I wish I had Caleb beside me. He knew exactly what to do. Once, when my parents were fighting and we heard. Caleb comforted me even though he was hurting too.
Today I wanted to go out. Doesn't mean I have to talk to anyone. But a butler said my mother has another royal family coming for a visit and I was requested to join. I didn't want to seem rude or selfish so I will go. I put this on⬇️
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Same hair and shoes. I walked out after Kylie finished my makeup and gave me my small sparkling ✨ silver clutch that fitted my phone and had my lipstick, chapstick, etc. I walked out; strutting through the halls, turning heads. I just ignored them as I powerfully walked/strutted through the halls leading to the throne room where my mom would be waiting. I didn't realize how fast I was going. I opened the two huge doors powerfully, making heads turn to me. I saw everyone there. I mean everyone. Even Hayden. I didn't even glance at him. I just went to my mother; curtsied and heard her speak.
