Fucked - A Negovanman Story

Where the fuck all began

Natasha was utterly and completely fucked.

When did all this fuck begin?

It all began with a certain audition for a web series called Carmilla. As soon as she heard that they were making a series about a lesbian vampire, she couldn't not try to get that role. Natasha identified as pansexual, as to her gender don't matter at all when it comes to love, and always wanted to play a non straight role.

In her audition day she met a certain someone.

Natasha got to the building in a hurry to not be late, with a coffee cup in her hand, huge, cause she had a hard time sleeping the night before. She was wearing a black outfit to match the darkiness of her character, paired with a black choker and black boots, her hair loose and a smoky eye make up. She didn't mind the look, as she kinda dressed like that usually anyways, cause it looked good on her.

Nervous about everything, she realized that she thankfully got there two minutes early. She got to the audition room and met with the woman who created the show, they looked like very cool people. She hoped she would get the part. In the room there were cameras, but no one besides Natasha and the creators. She chatted a little with them and her nervousness dissipated a little, they made her very comfortable.

She was curious to see the girl who would act with her, as she would be auditioning for Laura, Carmilla's love interest. When Natasha read the script she was amused by how cute Laura's character was, the girl who tried to please everyone, an idealist girl with a huge sense of justice, stressed and emotional in the cutest way possible. If Natasha would admit to herself something silly, she would say that just by reading a bit of the script she got a little crush on Laura's character.

Suddenly she was lost in thought by the sudden entrance of a girl in the room. As soon as she looked into that girl's eyes she felt a little shock go on inside her spine, a weird tremor wich caused her heart to race a little.

The girl was beautiful. She was very adorably petite, had long blond hair and honey eyes. The girl saw her and flashed a huge sincere smile, and Natasha couldn't help but smile back, just as warm. Breaking the moment, one of the creators said:

"Hello, you must be Elise Bauman, right? You are in now for the role of Laura Hollis?"

"Yeah, that's me." The cute girl said, revealing to Natasha her warming voice.

The creators proceeded to shake hands with Elise, and Natasha couldn't get the eyes off her. She looked very nervous, and never letting go of the warm smile.

"So Elise, this is Natasha, she is trying out for the role of Carmilla."

Elise than diverted her smiling eyes to Natasha, coming closer to greet her.

Natasha was suddenly aware of the girl's closeness, including her delicious perfume, as she smiled even bigger and extended her hand to greet her. As their hands met Natasha felt a huge warmth that covered her from hand to feet.

They soon had to play out a scene. Natasha had memorized it all very well, but this girls closeness messed a little with her head, making her nerves go wild. Yet she did it. They did it.

She was incredibly impressed with Elise's talent. She played the role perfectly, and exceeded her expectation's for Laura. They acted out so naturally, like deep down a part of them were always Laura and Carmilla. The connection was amazing, a chemistry so rare she never found with any co-star before. It was literally breath-taking.

After the scene ended and Natasha went back to being herself, she was amused. They really went into a bubble, a shell, where there was only Laura and Carmilla, and no one else, like it was real, and it sure felt real to Natasha.

She gazed upon the creators to see their reaction, and she soon knew that they felt it all too, the chemistry, like it was real.

They told them that the girls did amazing, and that they would get back at them later that week with the results.

Soon Elise and Natasha left the room, so they went out of the building together, Elise kept saying that Natasha did amazing, that she would definitely get the role of Carmilla, without any doubt. Natasha attempted and failed to hide a huge blush threatening to colonize her whole face, but thankfully Elise got distracted by the elevator door opening and didn't see it.

Natasha told her that she hoped they would both get the part, and Elise looked into her eyes once again and smiled that smile that could make your entire body very warm.

It was time the girls said their goodbyes and wished each other good luck.

Natasha left with a ridiculous big smile plastered on her face.

Natasha blamed stupid pms hormones for making her feel that way, also not dating anyone for a long time could have played a role in that sudden hormone explosion.

But latter on she would think back to that day and know it wasn't just hormones that made her feel emotional that day.

And there was where the fuck all began.