Fucked - A Negovanman Story

Butterflies

The meeting with the cast was fantastic. Natasha liked everyone and the thought of beginning to film made her heart do flips with excitement. She tried not to look too much into why she was so nervous, but she couldn't stop her mind from thinking about the beautiful blonde woman who would play her love interest.

Elise and Natasha chatted a bit more that day, but it was still a little awkward, from Natasha's side only, cause Elise seemed so calm and collected.

Natasha was a pile of nerves, but she was told in the past that she was very good at covering her emotions, putting on a serious neutral face. She hoped that was true, cause the stupid way she felt inside every time she was near Elise, or even at the same room made her concerned that the cute girl would notice.

Natasha was very worried. She made a pact with herself long ago, that as an actress, she wouldn't date other actors, particularly her costars. She made that mistake lots of times in the past, and it all just blowed up at her face. Actors were just too busy, too complicated, as was herself. Relationships with costars were just wrong, as it could mess up the performance itself. It was just a big no in her mind. But the thought of Elise made her feel so, so - alive really, like she haven't felt with anyone for a very long time. That crush feeling, stupid as fuck. The last date she had was like, many years before. And she was fine with not dating. She loved herself and wanted to dedicate time to her and to her career. But the blonde was seriously messing Natasha all up and down.

Natasha was at home reading the script that she was given, understanding more and more about the show and her troubled character. As well as the relationship between the vampire and the journalist.

The first episodes were in the script and Natasha was in love with the story. It was very cute, full of comedy, romance and adventure. It had a lot of potential.

Soon the first day of filming came.

Natasha was at her place getting ready for it. She dressed Carmilla-like, curled her hair, straightened her bangs and put on a bit of make up. She knew they would do her hair and make up there and she would be given another outfit, but she just wanted to look good when she arrived, perhaps to feel more confident and into the Carmilla spirit.

Her character was so confident, so sure of herself, she was jealous of it. She wished she was as confident, as bold as Carmilla to make a move at people. She sure could act the part especially when alcohol was involved, but she was a little shy with that flirting stuff.

Satisfied with what she saw in the mirror, she left her house and went to the set's location.

When she got there she was amazed.

Every member of the cast she met the other day were there, and they were so full of joy.

Almost every one. Who she was kidding, her eyes immediately looked for the petite woman, heart beating faster, yet not finding her.

She looked at the set. It was a typical room, with two single beds, as the script mentioned.

After greeting every one, she got guided into the make up room.

When entering, she found a little blonde sitting in one of the chairs, while a woman did her make up.

Elise's eyes found Natasha's across the mirror and Natasha felt a rush running inside her veins. She was trying not to acknowledge how teenager-like her feelings were, not admitting to herself the word to describe what she felt merely by locking eyes with the lady: butterflies.

"Hi Natasha!" Elise said with that warm smile of hers.

"Hey Elise!" Natasha smiled back, taking in a necessary nervous breath and sitting next to the girl. "So, excited about the filming?" She asked, just to strike up a conversation.

Natasha could smell the girls perfume, her scent made her head go a little fuzzy, getting her to want to crawl over the girl's neck to sniff it a little better. Fucked, she was.

"Yes! A little nervous too, I hope I don't screw everything up." Elise joked and laughed a little. Natasha smiled bigger after hearing it, and felt relived that she wasn't the only nervous one.

Yet Natasha was nervous just by standing next to her. Elise was probably just nervous about the acting, getting that feeling in the pit of the stomach when you're about to perform - a nervous excitement.

"I am too. But it will be fine. I mean, we got here didn't we?" Natasha smiled friendly (well sort of) at Elise.

Interrupting the ladies, Elise was called for the changing room, to change into her figurine. With a "see you later" to Natasha and a side smile, Natasha turned into mush. She watched the girl leave the room, admiring her figure, including her round ass. 'Oh God I'm fucked' Natasha thought feeling dirty from checking the girl out like that, diverting her eyes and trying to control her breath.

Feeling like a pathetic virgin teen boy, a woman did her make up and she went to change into her Carmilla outfit.

Looking in the mirror afterwards, she smirked to herself. She looked hot. No wonder why Carmilla was so confident. With a black leather pants showing of her legs and butt, a top showing a little of her stomach, dark make up and a black choker, she felt like her character.

She was ready to roll. To rock, too.

Getting in the set, she noticed Elise, looking adorable with a Laura-like outfit, sitting in the set's chair.

Elise eyes met hers and quickly locked at her from head to feet, checking her out. Seeing the girl's eyes hovering over her body for a second was enough for a small explosion to occur inside her, including her intimate area.

So fucked.

Elise smiled at her like nothing happened, like she hasn't just checked her out.

But a thought like a train, crushing Natasha's heart and soul made her loose her mood immediately.

She had never considered the possibility of Elise being straight.

Elise talked normally to her, looked innocently at her.

Perhaps she wasn't checking her out.

She could be just checking her outfit, in a straight girl way.

And there she was, feeling a colony of butterflies inside for a girl she just met, who could be straight, who was an actress AND her costar. All things wrong in only one sentence.

But as the filming began and they got to play Carmilla and Laura, nothing else mattered.

Natasha faded away and Carmilla took over. Carmilla, the confident, sexy, ancient vampire. Laura, the girl who would fall for the confident sexy vampire.

Their chemistry was breath-taking.

When they were done filming for the day, and she went back to being Natasha, something changed.

Playing Carmilla made her loosen up a bit with Elise.

Elise was such a fun, beautiful, full of light woman.

Natasha felt more comfortable around her as the day went by.

She went home feeling a little cold. It was a very cold winter.

But in the pit of her stomach, something took over, something that would probably grow more and more.

A colony of butterflies, colourful and full of light, landed inside Natasha's stomach.

They thought it was a warm place to call home.