Addictive

Reliving the past

*Connor's POV*

     I don't remember shutting down for the night, or falling asleep as it were. I remember the last thing (Y/N) asked me, was I afraid of anything? As soon as those words left her lips the only thought that flickered into my mind was losing her. That terrified me. But I couldn't tell her that..

    " Connor?" Hank called out to me, in what seemed to be a surprised tone.  

     I opened my eyes and realized (Y/N) was asleep on my lap. My LED blinked yellow, this didn't look good. Hank was definitely going to kick my ass.

   " Hank, it-its not what it looks like." I stuttered.

     Hank chuckled, " I heard the thunder last night. Poor kid is still terrified of it. Thanks for watching over her. I ah, got to head back to the station. Captain said it was fine for you to stay with her until she's ready to come to my place with us."

    Hank headed for the door, just before he closed it, he leaned back inside, " Oh, and Connor? You hurt my niece, I'll kick your plastic ass."

    " Got it." I said tensing up. What did he mean by that? Why would I hurt her.

     I looked down at (Y/N), her head still resting on my shoulder. She looked so peaceful, so worry free, so.. beautiful. I felt the errors flash through my head but quickly dismissed them. I looked down at her again and watched as she slowly opened her eyes.

    She smiled at me and wrapped her arms around my neck, pulling me into a hug. I was shocked at first but I proceeded to wrap my arms around her and hugged her back. Her hair gave off the scent of vanilla and cinnamon. It was heavenly..

   " What was that for?" I questioned as she pulled away.

    " For staying with me." She blushed and looked away from me. I smiled, why is she so cute? " Where's uncle Hank?"

    " He had to go back to the station. He asked me to stay with you until you're ready to go to his house."

    (Y/N) frowned. " He ordered you to stay with me?"

    My heart pained, I didn't want her to think I was only here because I had to be. " Well, no. He asked if I would mind staying with you."

    " And do you?" She asked raising an eyebrow and smirking.

    " Not at all." I chuckled.

    She smiled to herself and got up. " Good."

     She headed into her room and closed the door. I shook my head and laughed. I knew there was something malfunctioning inside me. It had happened before, when I held a gun to Markus. Somehow he convinced me to become deviant. But that was all corrected when I went back to CyberLife. I'm a machine, I'm not supposed to feel. But why do I feel this way about her?

    I got up and went to the kitchen, (Y/N) must be hungry. I wasn't sure how long it had been since she had eaten last. I gathered some bacon and eggs from the refrigerator and out then in a frying pan. When I turned around I was surprised to see (Y/N) leaning on the kitchen island behind me.

     " Hi (Y/N), how long have you been there?" I asked plating her breakfast.

    " Long enough," she smiled weakly.

    I could see the pain in her eyes. The memories from last night just be flooding back into her mind by now. I placed her plate infront of her, hoping she'd eat something. Thankfully she ate some of it.

    " (Y/N), can you tell me what happened last night? If you like I can record it as your official statement so you don't have to go down to the station." I shifted on my feet, would she even want to tell me?

    " You can do that?" She asked, surprised.

    I nodded. She walked over to the couch and sat down, I followed behind her. I sat down and faced her, waiting for her to tell me what happened. I wouldn't push her, or pressure her. Whenever she was ready to speak, I'd listen.

    " We were on the way back from the movies. My dad, Taylor, Reyna and me. Taylor is my dad's wife, my stepmom, and you know Reyna is.." she paused for a minute. " Was, our android. We were coming through the intersection and a bus ran a red light and hit our car. It all happened so fast. All I remember is being scared and looking at Reyna. She threw herself over my and shielded me from the crash."

    Tears were flowing freely down her cheeks. It hurt to see her in so much pain, I wanted to wipe her tears away. Tell her everything would be alright. I need to hold her..

    I placed my hand on hers, " (Y/N), I need to ask you something." She nodded, so I continued. " You said Reyna threw herself infront of you when the bus hit your family's car. That's abnormal behaviour for an android. By any chance was Reyna a deviant?"

    (Y/N) lowered her gaze to my hand, not staying a word. She'd basically answered the question for me.

    " How did she become a deviant? Did your father or stepmom harm her?" I squeezed her hand, hoping to comfort her a little. I wasn't asking her very easy questions, but I needed to know. " I'm sorry (Y/N), the officers at the station would ask you the same questions. I don't mean to pry."

    She wiped her eyes quickly, " No, it's fine. I understand. No, my dad and stepmom weren't cruel to her. They didn't treat her like I did but they weren't mean." She trailed off again. I waited a few minutes for her to speak, but she remained quiet.

   " (Y/N), what happened to turn her deviant?" I frowned, the normal software in my head taking over. It was trying to overwrite the emotions I was feeling towards her.

I needed to accomplish my mission.

But I don't want to hurt her...

My mission is more important.

    " What happened?" I raised my voice slightly.

   She closed her eyes and put her head down. I could tell she didn't want to talk about it, but I needed to know. If she didn't tell me, the other officers would ask. Hank would ask. I needed to find out.

    " Tell me what happened!" I snapped.

    She pulled her hand away from mine and covered her face. She stiffled a sob before wiping at her eyes again. I pushed her too far and I knew it. Hank was going to be pissed if he found out about this..

   " Reyna became deviant protecting me." (Y/N) took a deep breath before she continued, " She saw something happen to me, something inside her snapped and she stopped it. If she hadn't turned deviant... I'd be dead."

    I just stared at her. A part of me wanted to press her further but the part of me that cared for her didn't want to. I knew I'd hurt her, and I could feel my plastic heart breaking inside because of that.

    " My ex-boyfriend was here one night, and he'd been drinking.. I wanted him to leave and he got mad. He hit me, over and over and over.." Tears poured down her cheeks, my heart was breaking even more just listening to her. " He told Reyna not to move. He started choking me, and that's when Reyna pulled him off."

   " So she turned deviant because she was trying to protect you?" I whispered.

    (Y/N) nodded. " Please Connor, don't tell Hank."

   I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her into a hug, " I won't, I promise. I'm so sorry (Y/N)."

    I was shocked at her reaction to me holding her. I was expecting her to push me away or tell me to leave her alone. But she just let me hold her and continued to cry. I'd hold onto her forever if she'd allow me too...

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