Keep It In The Closet

Crushing

The next day, I found myself trying my hardest to avoid Perrie. Ever since yesterday when she said she was gonna try to take Niall, I'd felt off about the smile she gave. It was so wicked, I couldn't stand it. They were right, she was a bitch. A manic bitch, that is. "Why do you look so sneaky?" A voice said from behind me, making me gasp. I turn around quickly to see Zayn standing there, and sigh softly, closing my eyes. "You scared the crap out of me! What are you doing here?!" I hiss, and he smiles softly. "Uh..it's school. I've really got no choice here, really. Why are you so jumpy anyway?" He asks as we walk forward to art, and I sigh, rubbing my forehead. "Okay so basically, I'm avoiding a manic and you're bringing attention to me and she'll see me so go away! Shoo!" I say as people watch us walk down the hall, whispers starting to fly. "Oh please. If you're talking about the manic I thought about, she won't even be in the halls right now. She's always off helping for the school productions. We've got some masquerade coming up, so she's probably getting that together." He mumbles, and I turn to him, wondering. "Doesnt that have to be set somewhere special?" "Yeah, so she's most likely not even here. But there goes her pet." I frown and look ahead to see Jade, walking quickly ahead. "Pet?" "Have you not noticed? Perrie's got her leash around her neck so tight, she's afraid to even look in my direction." He mumbles, rolling his eyes. What happened between those two again? 

"Well yeah I've noticed that part...but I've never figured out all of the secrets around here." I say, and he instantly starts to look nervous. "What do you mean?" He asks slowly, looking away from me. I wonder if everything I was hearing had something to do with him? "Uh...the secrets and low threats, warnings from people I've never met about the people I'm hanging out with. All I'm saying is..there's something going on at this school that has something to do with Perrie and I'm honestly questioning everyone around me. Why is everyone so secretive?" Zayn laughs nervously, and sighs. "Don't ask questions that you won't like the answer to, Leigh-Anne." He warns, but in a warm voice. It didn't stop me from staring at him though. What did he know that I didn't? And why was everyone so afraid to challenge Perrie? 

"...okay." I say slowly, before I go into the library, not questioning anything else..out loud. This is getting really, really weird. And when I say weird I mean it. Maybe I should ask someone else that isn't secretive, like Danielle or Eleanor. They seemed more than happy to tell all about Perrie, so maybe they'd be able to help me with this. 

"Hey guys." I mumble as I sit down, and they all say hi. "You're just not going to invite your boyfriend over?" Eleanor asks teasingly as she gestures to Zayn, and I roll my eyes, laughing. "El, that's not her boyfriend. Havent you heard? She's dating Liam." Jesy teases me further, bringing up yesterday's antics of trying to forget Perrie's angered glares burning right into my soul. "Ooh Liam Payne? Nice one girl, you got that good boy on ya hands." Pixie says as she smiles slyly, while Danielle just scoffs and looks down, rolling her eyes. What was that all about? "Question is...is he better than the bad boy?" Jesy whispers as the teacher walks in, quieting the class. 

What a good question. 

After that, I couldn't stop thinking about Liam and Zayn, and how they were different from each other. 

Zayn was quiet, he kept to himself. He seemed like he was the type to think things through completely before doing it. He seemed like the type to handle everything with care, the type to not be bothered with what people thought about him. But once you talked to him, he really opened up. He was nice, and he was funny. He was also very, VERY cute. 

Before I could even think about Liam, a voice broke through my thoughts. "Leigh-Anne!" Jesy says, and I look over at her. "Yeah?" "Get to work? Did you hear a word she said?" I look down, signalling that I hadn't heard a single thing. "Too busy thinking about your boyfriend Zayn?" Pixie asks, and I hear Zayn laugh. I look up and see that he was walking by just in time to hear it. "Pixie! No, Zayn's not my boyfriend!" "But you were thinking about me?" "W-what? No! God Zayn." I say nervously as I look down, shaking my head. How did he know?! 

"Aw, you were! I'm flattered! Maybe I should be your boyfriend." He teases, and everyone sitting at the table starts to giggle. "Ooh Zayn! Kill it boy!" Eleanor says as she waggles her eyebrows, and I smile, playing along. "Oh, so you want to be my boyfriend? Well, Malik, I'm flattered, but I've already got a man. Liam? Payne? Him." I say teasingly, and he pouts playfully. "Aw, how disappointing. He's not around a day you let me know. I'll show you how it's done babe." He whispers sexily, before walking away with the book he'd gotten, leaving my mouth dropped open a bit. I could not believe him! What he said not only shocked me, but gave me a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. And it left everyone silently screaming. 

"Holy shit Leigh, I think he likes you!" Eleanor says as she squeals. 

I roll my eyes as I scoff, trying not to fall into their words. "It was a joke!" I say as I laugh, and Jesy raises her eyebrows. "Babe that right there? That seemed really sincere. Go over and sit with him for this period, see where it goes. And try not to think about how you're crushing on him please." she teases, causing everyone to giggle. I groan and pick up my bag and notebook, before making my way to him. 

"What are we supposed to be doing?" I ask as I sit, and he looks up. "Drawing the sky in your image or whatever." He says without looking up, and don't say anything back, I just pull out my notebook and sigh. "Can it be day or night." He looks up and shrugs, looking at the teacher. "I dunno, but you can ask. She's right there." I raise my hand, and she nods to me. "Yes Leigh-Anne?" She asks as she smiles, and all the attention turns to me. "Can it be day or night?" I ask as and she thinks. "I never thought of that. Yeah, you can do that." I nod and go to work, thinking of a certain view in my mind. 

As I draw, I feel someone watching me closely, and I look up quickly to see Zayn looking at me. I look down and smile, trying to go back to focusing on drawing, but when I looked up I couldn't help but think about what Eleanor and Jesy said about Zayn liking me. What if they were right? If he liked me, what would I do? I mean...would I make the first move? Or would I let him catch on? What if he never did, and I was left looking stupid as he totally ignores my feelings for him? I set my pencil down and sigh, looking at what I'd done so far. I'd drawn half of the field, I just needed to do the rest of it, the horizon, and the moon...or the clouds, since the night that happened was at a cloudy night. 

I bite my lip and cross my legs, looking up at Zayn, who had went back to his drawing. I look over at the girls, who were in fact excited about something I'd missed. I look back to Zayn and look down at what he was drawing. It was so pretty, so realistic, so..perfect that I couldnt help but stare in awe. He was an amazing artist, and he was so hot. So hot. 

I blink and look away, wondering why I thought that last part. I mean sure there was no denying the pure hotness of Zayn Malik for everyone else, but for me? I wasn't supposed to be like other girls, but I suppose I am. i'm not any more special than anyone else, hm? 

"Why do you keep staring at me?" He whispers, and I blink, perching my lips. "I was only staring back at you from when you were staring at me." He smiles and looks away, nodding. "I guess I did look at you pretty long..sorry." He mumbles, sounding embarrassed. I smile and fight off a laugh, before sighing. "Nah, don't worry 'bout it. I enjoyed it. Very nice. Stare at me again so I can feel beautiful." I joke, and he smiles. "No problem." He says as he  watches me, and I laugh. "It was a joke, Malik." "I know. But now I want to." 

This boy is trying to kill me.