The flesh covering my bones

Why...

I've been feeling like we're not right.

I feel like you're changing around me.

I feel replaced.

So I try to drink it off and I don't think about the consequences.

I'm sorry I made you feel like we're drifting.

I hate the fact that I also think we are.

That's the last thing that I want to feel.

You're so fucking important to me you don't even understand.

When I see you with other people and you call them your best friend I feel like there's a hole dug right in my heart.

When I hear about what you say about your families opinions about me I feel like I shouldn't be in your life, because I'm just dragging you down a lot.

In my opinion, I'm not right for you to be around.

I'm not the type of environment you should be around at all.

I don't feel like I can keep you safe anymore.

I hate the fact that you can't share your actual feelings with me.

Everything's a secret with you, while I'm an open book for you.

I feel like you don't trust me, where as I trust you with anything and everything.

I hate this feeling.

The fact that I'm crying while writing this means it's really bad.

I loved how we were before.

Talking about so much crap like it was our last conversation.

I'm so sorry.

I'm so so sorry.

But sorry can't express this feeling.

I'm sorry....

-Cj