Random Shit By Me!!!!

Random Thoughts (sorry to bother you)

Idk what I'm doing anymore. I should be updating my parent scenario book but I have writers block atm. Anyway, so it's summer time. That usually means hanging out with friends and going out. Not me. Nope. I hate asking people to hang out. I'm afraid of rejection and that no one wants to hang out with me. For instance, I was at the water park a few weeks ago and I wanted a friend to go. I invited a friend that I have seen in a while and they showed up. Turns out, their friends were there and they hung out with them more than the actual person who wanted to spend time with them. I don't do well in big groups. I'm more of a one on one person cause if there's three of us, I'm always the third wheel. And it sucks. I see all my friends hanging out with one another, but NONE of them ever talk to me. I mean...I'm going to a different high school, but still. I am shit at talking to people and making friends cause I speak what's on my mind and I'm a very negative person. I always feel like such a bother to people...my parents get mad because I don't hang out with people and I hate going places. I like staying in my room and role playing. Or watching YouTube. Idk why I wrote this...just had to get stuff off my chest ig....sorry to bother you guys again.....