it's been awhile now. last update was a false alarm. he posted her on his story like 2 or 3 weeks after i wrote it which is actually pretty funny to me now. idk what happened to them for that little bit of time but it's none of my business right? right. anyways
it's summer and i haven't seen or talked to him since school ended which has helped a lot. at this point i could care less about who he's with or what he's doing anymore. i'm not going to say i've gotten over him tho, because again i don't think i will because he's always going to be known as my first "whatever we were". i don't think about him much at all anymore but i'm going to admit i do get my moments. i'm not sure if they are still together anymore, not that i really care tho. i hope he's happy with whoever he's with just as long as he's not hurting me anymore. i'm not sure if i feel this way because i haven't seen or talked to him in awhile or i'm actually just getting over him. either way i have to admit it feels so good not having him on my mind 24/7. that wrecked me and showed me a side of me i never ever want to see again. i was crazy obsessive over a kid who didn't care about me. i feel so free now and it's amazing. i'm finally living a life for me and growing in a positive direction for me. i love it!!! I just really hope i stay this way and he doesn't ruin it again in any way like he ruined me the last time i let him in.
