sometimes i wish i could have changed him. changed his mindset, intentions, and his expectations. but most of all i wish i could of changed myself to fit his expectations and i wish i was enough for him. all. i wanted to do was make him happy and fulfill all of his wants and needs and his expectations of a "girlfriend". but i guess i wasn't good enough for him and i sit here and blame myself for it. no matter who and how many times people tell me i shouldn't blame myself for it and that and i deserve so much better i choose not to listen to them. i wanted to deserve him and most of all i wanted him to be mine. i still wonder what i did wrong or if it was something i said or did to not make him want me anymore and want someone new. no matter how many times i try to tell myself it's time to be over him i can't help it and i think it's sick how much i think about him. every second of the day i think what if and what did i do.
