Love will remember ( a justin bieber y/n fanfic)

Wedding Bells

Justins POV

Its been months. Months and my heart is aching. It hurts too much for me to bare. Everyone keeps telling me I am hurting them more by not going back. I cannot get myself to drive to her house and apologize. My eyes are normally bloodshot from crying. I've seen pictures the paparazzi have taken, but thats it. My children are gone, the love of my life, minutes from me. I truly am scared. I am affraid if I go back to them, I will mess up again, and it will be horrible. 

"Get up." Scooter yelled snapping me out of my thoughts. "What do you want." I snapped at him. His face lightened, noticing how much pain I really am in. " My wedding is coming up, I invited you, and you never responded, are you coming or not?" Scooter said. "Yeh Ill be there." He left after giving me a hug and telling me to get ahold of myself.  I bought the most expensive suit out there. Happy Scooter? 

Y/N POV 

"Connor stop yelling." I said trying to get my two year old to stop screaming. "Mommy where are we going?" He said refferring to all the packing I have been doing lately. "Remember Scooter sweatheart, he is getting married on Sunday and we are flying to Canada for his wedding." I said picking Connor up. "We might even see daddy." I regreted it as soon as I said his name. Connor's face lit up at the sound of his father. My children miss their father. They dont understand why he wont come over and talk to them. Tomorrow we are flying to Canada so we can attend Scooter and Yael's wedding.

*Skip to wedding* 

Y/N POV

Im scared to see him. I know he is here because its Justin, he doesnt travel lightly. As they unloaded his bags from his car, a part of me wanted him to walk out and say he is sorry. With two kids sleeping in the room, I got time to walk around the hotel and catch up with some old friends. The dinner party is tonight and my kids arent coming with me, I really hope to talk to him. 

It was 7:35 and the dinner party started five minutes ago. I cant get myself to walk into the room. I dont want fake apologies from super rich people. Of course he brought a girl with him, its Justin for crying outloud. And they are holding hands, why not just shoot me instead. You know what, just remember you have his kids. I said to myself, laughing a little. 

I walked into the room, and immediately all eyes were on me. I was wearing a dress, nothing too fancy. "You made it! Where are the kids?" Pattie said running up to me. "Chilling upstairs." I said focusing on Justin and his new "friend." "No need to freak, they are just friends." Pattie whispered. "Just friends my ass." I said walking away. 

Awkward would be an understatment. Guess who sat right in front of me? The one and only Justin Bieber. To his right was Madison Beer (of course) and to his left was his new "toy." "I am totally in love with your dress!" Madison said refering to my dress. "Thanks." I said trying not to make eye contact with Justin. I could feel his eyes burning into my soul. " Where did you get it from?" Madison asked not getting the hint that I didnt really wanna chat. " Montaigne market, in Paris. It was a custome make." Justin said joining our conversation. 

"Oh I have no idea what that means but its beautiful." Madison said turning to Justin. I looked up from my plate and for the first time that night, made eye contact with the love of my life. "That was one of best night of my life," he continued "you freaked out because you found out you were pregnant again. I told everything was gonna be alright and you slapped me in the arm for quoting my own song." He finished letting out a little laugh. I couldnt breath. The walls of the room were deffinantly closing in on me. My throat was dry, water would be no use. "She refused to by that dress herself," Justin said turning to Madison. " Connor threw up on me for the first time that night." "Wow, thats gross." She said turning to me. 

I just stared. What was I supposed to say. Hey Justin just keep remenising on the best times of my life, while your at it, why dont ya stap me in the heart. I didnt even notice myself start crying. "Ill be right back." I said getting up from my chair and heading towards the bathroom.  I cried for an hour and then decided to just go back to my kids. 

*The next day*

Justins POV

Lets see how many hours I slept last night. Hmm, a little less than four to be exact. No I was not up with my new friend, I couldnt stop thinking about y/n. Her face when I started talking about our life together. It almost look as if i broke her. Today we will talk, no doubt. I honestly cant wait to see my kids. 

I put on my extremely expensive clothes, and headed downstairs towards the service. I saw Connor running towards my mom, wearing the cuttest suit, and then I turned around to see y/n looking beautiful in a red dress, holding my baby girl. Speachless, I wasnt able to say anything. "Justin come here." My mom said motioning for me to walk towards her. "Hey buddy!" I said picking Connor up. Shortly after, y/n came walking over with Charlie in her hands. "Pattie do you mind watching them for a sec, Im gonna say hi to alfredo." Y/n said walking away. 

Moments later, y/n came back and took the kids into the service. As we all stood up to greet Yael, y/n and I locked eyes with each other. We just stared. I wasnt sure if I should mouth sorry to her, or just continue our "staring contest." 

Y/n POV 

With the wedding over and the reseption begining, I took Charlie and Connor to their babysitter for the night. I knew that Justin and I would talk tongiht and I didnt want them to be around us. Walking into the partyroom, I spotted Justin talking to Madison. I walked by trying to get Justin's attention notifying him that we should talk, but obviously that didnt work. 

"Come with me." Pattie yelled grabbing onto my wrist. Together, we walked over to Justin and Pattie said that same thing. She pulled us into a garden outside of the party room. "You two need to start talking right now." Pattie said, not screaming this time. "You need to fix your family." With that she walked down the path, back towards the room. 

After five minutes, it became pretty obvious that if one of us wouldnt start the conversation, there would be no conversation. "Charlie got so big." Justin spoke up. "I remember when you where pregnant with her. You always wanted me to rub your back and cook you food." He said with a little laugh. Without thinking, I blurted out, "I cant look Connor in the eye." I knew I regretted it as soon as the words exited my lips. "And why is that?" Justin said trying to avoid eye contact. "He looks exactly like you. I try so hard to look at him as Connor, but everytime I see him, all I see is you." Silence. You heard music in a distance coming from the party, but otherwise, it was dead silent. 

"Last week I signed Connor up for ice hockey. Your mom showed him pictures of you when you were younger. He said he wanted to be you when he grew up and made me sign him up." Justin looked up and smilied. I knew I should tell him the next thing, but I really didnt want his heart to break. "Ryan and Caitlin came over with their kids. Connor walked over to Caitlin and asked her why he didnt have a daddy like her kids had one. She told him you where away for work and he cried the rest of the night." I need to stop talking I thought to myself. 

Justin didnt say anything. He walked over to me and hugged me, startling me at first but I quickly wrapped my arms around him. "Im sorry" I said looking me in the eye while tears filled his eyes. "Its okay." I said trying to break our eye contact. "I will always love you." He said before walking back towards the tent. Each step he took, my heart broke a little more. 

sorry for not updating in like months

idk what to write anymore 

:) 

eh ill figure something out.