He's My Lil Baby

No Cap 12

Alexis "ButterFly"

I arrived home hoping and praying Brandon was there but he probably not I called several times and leaving several voice messages explaining how much I were sorry " How Can I Be So Insecure?" I said talking to myself.

I walked in the house to see all his clothes and shoes packed which I only packed half of his clothes so I knew he was home " BIBBY I YELLED OUT!

I guess he were ignoring me I walked in our bedroom to see him grabbing some more of his things. "BIBBY I Said while crying right there I knew my heart were breaking into pieces.

Brandon I'm so so so SORRY...Please forgive me I don't know whats going on with me.... "you staying out all night and having me worried all night got me going insane I didn't sleep at all.

Alexis I don't know why you're so insecure and I never gave you not one reason to think I'm cheating with anyone.

He kept packing his things PLEASE BRANDON don't tear this family apart....All Lil B knows his mommy and daddy.

Alexis you fucked this up not me I never once put my hands on you then for you to do that shit in front of my brothers and Tyler just plain crazy and stupid.

I feel so stupid " as you should Alexis" I'm tired of this shit I can't leave the house without you thinking I'm cheating on you.....You have my passcode to everything from all my social media's, phones, email, even my laptop where I does all my work on....You gotta fix yourself before fixing this I tried to stick it out with you by giving you the benefit of the doubt but it's not working.

You can't leave me I would do whatever it takes, I will go to counseling I would do anything.

I started to get naked because this what I thought he wanted but I guess it's too late.

I will be at my moms or a hotel for a few days just to clear my head I will be back to get lil B In 2 days.

Noooooo BRANDON if I gotta go sleep on the couch. In the guest room or Lil B's room I will please don't do this I apologize.

"Lex" look at my fucking face I have a fucking bruised on top of my eye " If I would've put hands on you.....what would you do ? Leave right but the difference between me and you I will never just leave you or put my hands on you...it's time for you to grow up.... I fucked up in the past but I never once cheated on you.

You let your other relationships fuck up a good one Alexis your past is yours, Mines is Mines we shouldn't let nothing that happened before us fucks up what we got.

Put back on your clothes SEX not the issue with us at this point it's you until you can fix your insecurities you have with yourself "we need space.

I went to stop Brandon but from there I knew it's no stopping him I just stood there crying because that's all I could do at the moment....I gotta stop acting this way I said to myself....I fucked up this time.

I heard the front door closed and my heart broke into more pieces I just let a good man leave out the front door it's nothing I could do.

I went down the stairs to see that he left majority of his clothes by the front door hoping he about to turn back around to grab them I gotta make it right I refuse to let my son grow up without both parent because of me " Depression is not good especially when they're insecurities  playing apart of it.

I picked back up his clothes and fold them and took them back to the room I put all his shoes, belts, fitted hats, wife beaters and everything else he had left here" up.

I started cleaning and realized it was almost time for Lil B to get out of school.

I called my parents to see if they had gotten him or on their way.
"Mommy did you guys get little B yet?

Alexis "Bibby went to go get him" he told us not to go get him is everything okay?.

Mommy I fucked up my family for my own stupid little insecurities and fears thinking he cheating he never gave me a reason to feel like this I don't know why I've been feeling so delusional and crazy lately.

Pregnant? Or you just going through the depression stage of your life which everybody goes through but you gotta fix this I know myself I don't wanna see you two falling apart.

Mommy " I'm trying" I just need to pull it together this not about me this about my whole family.

Exactly, give Brandon his space but not for too long because you don't want him to feel unappreciated and he go on with his life....it's not always the man in the relationship us women gotta treat our men like KINGS "it's too many people against our kind at that so show your man you're not against him you're with him when the world is going against him.

I love you mommy " let me call him" I gotta get my man back thanks for the advice.

After talking to my mother ." I called Tyler up I really need her help at this moment.

Tyler, can you get Bibby to meet me at the restaurant on Rosa street at his favorite restaurant Clyde's steakhouse by 9 please.

I'm on it, if I gotta get Dominique to help me I will.

Thanks so much Bestfriend " He got Lil B so all you gotta do is tell him Braylee want to see lil B.

Okay, love i will hit you back!.

I looked into my closet grabbed my black leather dress out my closet, placed it on the bed.

I went to my dresser to get a lingerie set a Black one...RED and Black is one of his favorite colors he like on me.

I went to the bathroom turned the shower on I washed up for about 10 mins, I jumped out grabbed my towel....I went to the mirror and shook my head at myself and brushed my teeth. I went to my make up room & did my make up, which took me about 30 minuets because I didn't wanna do too much, after I finished my brows and foundation I put on some ruby woo red lipstick.

I went back into our room and grabbed my dress off the bed and put it on I walked into my closet grabbed my coco Chanel shoes with the rhinestone around the front of it. I went back to the bathroom did my hair in a ponytail because I didn't have time to curl my whole head....I grabbed Bibby's laptop and made reservations for the restaurant and I got us a penthouse for the rest of the weekend.

I paid for everything on line, I packed our bags grabbed everything we may need for the weekend including Lil B's changing clothes for Tyler and Lil baby house for the weekend.

I grabbed my keys off my night stand, and looked at myself to see if I dressed up and made it real for him .

(S/N : this exactly what she got on right now, any pictures you see in the beginning is not what they got on, It's just the picture of the character I use for their chapters)