He's My Lil Baby

No Cap 17

Amina.

It's been quite busy on my schedule from  traveling back and forth from city to city, state to state it starting to be kind of exhausted!!. I decided to take a vacation to go back to my home town for a freshen week. I jumped up off my bed and placed my laptop on top my dresser as much I just wanna lay back and enjoy my week vacation in bed but it seems I always got shit to do.

Like go visit my mom on the west side of the Chi.

I booked my flight from L.A to Chicago, I think I wanna get a roommate back home because I'm tired of paying for hotels and staying in other people homes every time I visit.

I decided to call Bianca to let her know I will be there later on tonight my flight don't land til 10:15 pm.

Me and Bianca were best friends until I decided to not keep the baby and from there shit went left I mean all the way left....imaging not having no body but your mom on your side during a hard time like that I mean me and Bianca grew closer over the first few month me and Brandon had gotten together.

I shot her a text, & gotten in the shower that took about a quick 20 minutes.

I unlocked my phone and seen I had 7 unread messages and 3 voice messages.

I decided to call the unfamiliar number back, Hello I splurged through the phone.

Hey Amina how are you?" I sighed as much I didn't wanna talk to him I had nobody to satisfy me like Duke....Damn you don't miss me Amina? You still mad at me over shit I couldn't control.?

YOU CAN'T CONTROL??!! tell me how the fuck you cant control bitches from calling your phone? How the fuck you cant control yourself from having sex with not just another bitch but several...? Please tell me how you can't control yourself Duke?

Bitches threw themselves at me what I'm suppose to do? " I might've had came off selfish and careless Amina but as a nigga I couldn't stop myself from getting myself involved with other females from time to time.

Bye DUKE, Click!!!!!!!!!!

I tried to hold back the tears but I couldn't I loved Duke every since I moved here he were the first to show me around LA other than my ex Co-Workers as months passed by me and Duke decided to make it official until one day he decided to leave his phone on the charger unlocked I usually doesn't look through my boyfriend phones but too many phone calls kept coming through,. when I looked to see who were blowing my man phone up.... I seen different messages and unsaved numbers kept coming through that's when shit went all the way left.

I miss Duke sex and company but since then I've been nothing but focused on me and only me.

I texted Bianca back because she text while I showered. I looked through my closet and grabbed a all denim one pieces I ordered off fashion nova I packed the rest of my things and decide to go cook me breakfast.

I scrolled through Instagram while waiting for my waffles and turkey bacon to be done.

I checked my dm just to see lil Durk trying to make me one of his hoes and he know that's not me. Me and durk knew each other since kids growing up in the Chi but everybody changed and became somebody.

I ignored so many dm's but I look at one message that caught me off guard BIBBY giving me his mom number again.

I missed Bibby I can only imagined myself being his wife and probably been on our third child or maybe more right about now....I FUCKED UP!! and no matter how many years we moved on from each other I can't get him outta my mind.

I always wonder what the fetus was going to be? A girl Brandon told me if we ever to have a daughter her name was gonna be Seven because his football jersey was number 7 and 7 was always his favorite number for some odd reason.

I spread butter and syrup all over my waffles, and took me some apple sauces from the fridge , I diced up some strawberries and bananas and then put my crispy bacon on my plate.

After a few hours I decided to get one of my females neighbors to drop me off at the airport.

After my flight Bianca was there waiting on me " Sisterrrrrrrrr she ran up to me and said.

We use to call one another Bestfriends but as we grew apart and gotten back closer we decided to say Sister.

She grabbed one of my suitcases thank GOD the heaviest one.

Tell me how you been ? I said to Bianca because we just catching back up we always talk on instagram and through texts but we haven't seen each other in years.

I been trying to get things on top with working in my ma basement helping her do hair but Bibby said he got a surprised for us I know he went to go get a salon but no telling where at he been trying to get us away from Chicago things been hectic and not safe.

Wow that man know how to make everybody smile speaking of him I always think of him since I seen him at the strip club I wanna apologize to everybody about the decision I made as a teen I thought I was only protecting Brandon's and I future without thinking about nobody feelings but mines I know Brandon probably still hates me.

I accepted.....I just had to let you know I was mad because my brother were hurt.....that wasn't my business but you know as much as everybody else knows my baby brothers are my world and just seeing him hurting like that made me angry at you...he didn't wanna come out his room or nothing I understand that's your body and y'all business but as a big sister I had to speak on how that made me feel.

Well enough of my brother....we gonna go to my house, get comfortable tomorrow morning we can go to see your mom, my mom, go look at a few places that you might be interested in.

Okay sounds like fun but busy where's my god son?

He a big boy now he at his dad house but he will be back before you go back to LA.