All You Need is Love

From Midnight to Morning.

7/14/14... 2 AM.
Yes,I am actually dating my writing now. This poem is kinda scary..& long. But other than that I hope you guys can connect well with it.
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I am losing so much sleep,

Not even thinking as straight as I usually am..

Very religious as I was

Followed the rules like I am

Made so many people unhappy I lost the count of how much best friends I had

But heck, I know how much friends I have

I surrounded myself with support

But support is what I need now

Being through so much stress I can't contain now

My mind was hollow,

Now filled with sorrow and thoughts

Thoughts as in a combination between the rocky ground and the soft

I actually gave a damn about the people who got hurt

I cared enough that I forgot about my own growth

Self-growth needs to replace the past, don't you agree?

Surprising as it is and surprising as you can see

I am actually one of the happiest people you could ever be surrounded by,

But how many people have that visionary eye?

My head hurts, my heart burns

Got myself into things I wish I could return

Return, replace, undo, redo...

Be good, stay true, be you...

All things I've thought about and been told so many times

And come to think of it

The more times you hear someone say something the more you seem to believe it

They tell you you're pretty, when you think you're not

They tell you you're proper, when you think you're not

They tell you you're beautiful, when you think you are not

Then what are you?

You are surely not a waste of space,

Since there is so much space in so many people's heart's.

You believe what you want to believe

You say what you think you are when you're not what you think you are

So call yourself beautiful and love yourself

Cause then you'll actually be happy.

My mind hurts,my head hurts,my heart hurts, my throat burns...

Coping with pain is one of the strongest things I've seen people go through

I need to tell you this right now, there had been so much things I had to deal with..

Including my intelligence,

Jealousy,

Lust,

Heartbreaks,

Love,

Stress..

All jumbled up in my soul.

My body hurts and my soul hurts, so what do I do?

I can cope with the pain

I can murder myself just by doing it,

Killing myself within...

I can handle all the stress.

I can.

But it's a choice,

Since everything is a choice, isn't it?

I can choose to deal with the pain,

Or I could just forget it all...

Is it worth it, though?

Feeling the pain I go through?

It will be, trust me.

It will all pay off.

I could also cut off any sense of emotion I have, and not feel anything for anyone...

Actually feel happy for myself for once,

No one else.

The only time I could actually put myself first, but then hurt countless people in the end..

That's the worst thing that could happen, though.

Not feel any emotion.

You will find yourself buried;

Your heart buried,

Your mind buried,

Your whole soul will be buried

Underneath all of these chambers,

Almost unbreakable chains,

The most heartless person will be unleashed.

Everyone will end up not loving you anymore..

Until it comes down from one person,

to absolutely none.

So I've learned to feel,

For others,

And recently just started caring for myself as well.

714.

What do you think about that number?

It's a date to replace the girl who had no self-love or independence.

It's the date this girl would sprout and grow.

It's the date this girl would start to take care of herself.