annie
it had been a month since hayden and i broke up. i saw the pictures. i knew that he didn't love me anymore. i was starting to question whether or not he ever did.
i had stopped talking to a lot of my friends. answering their texts and calls seemed useless and i didn't have the energy. jayden had been texting me relentlessly since the pictures of kenzie and hayden surfaced, but i had yet to reply. she didn't need to be bothered with my problems.
"annie!" i quickly snapped my head up to see my mom standing in front of me with the camera in her hand. i was sitting at the piano, my hair falling on my shoulders and tears threatening to fall from my eyes. i couldn't fall apart. not in front of everyone. instead i nodded and tried to smile at the right times.
god, why did my mom have to choose the worst moments to shove a camera in my face.
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i couldn't avoid anyone any longer. break was over tomorrow, which meant that i would be back on set. hayden wouldn't be there. i was just going to record a music video.
i had my hair up in a messy bun and had just put a face mask on. it was a usual sunday evening, except nothing had been usual lately. the only thing i could think to do was pick up the phone.
"hey girly! how are you?" jayden picked up after the second ring. she always was quick to answer.
"i'm.. fine." i tried to sound convincing but failed miserably.
"lies. tell me what's going on."
and so i did. we talked until two am. i ranted and she listened and we talked about anything and everything, just like we always had. i found myself laughing for the first time in a while. and then both of us decided that it would be good to actually get some sleep.
"i love you, a. always."
"i love you too, j. forever."
