Feeling worthless

Chapter two

(Joana) I told my mom about Jacob and she said he sounded like he was really nice an she told me I could go anywhere with him but I had to tell her but I know what's her answer she always says. Yes so I'm good

The next day*

(Joana) I woke up and I took a shower I is put some tights and a tank top and I did a messy bun on my hair I ran down stairs to go to the kitchen I ate cereal and I messages Jacob

To Jacob 😁:hey is me Joana from yesterday

To Joana: hey Joanna and give me a couple of min ima eat and I'll message you when I'm done and we will go Ice skating

To Joana: okay

(Joana) I was so happy I was gonna go ice skating with Jacob

And I bearly met him yesterday

And I feel like I have known him since I was smaller but after

Eating I when upstairs and brushed my teeth and got a

Light jacket and I was ready to leave I was just waiting for Jacob to txt me so I decided to go to twitter and I saw that he followed me I was so happy but I didn't really need it because I had his number and he was my neighbor

Beep* beep*

Txt from Jacob

To Joana : Im outside your house come hurry

(Joana)MOM IMA GO ICE SKATING WITH JACOB

(Mom) okay honey

(Joana) I rushed down an I saw his mom and him I smiled and I said hey and his mom had a big smile

(Jacobs mom)hey nice too meet you

(Joana) nice to meet you too when we got there I was so exited cause I have never been ice skating and I was scared

(Jacob)ready (smiling)

(Joana) I didn't know how to skate so Jacob had to grab me from my hand and I was falling and we were talking about school and that he could show me around when it started and it's like 1more week

We went to the movies when for long walks and made YouTube videos and all that

And like a couple of weeks before school started we went to buy some mechanical pencils and notebooks and a backpack and he talked a lot of cool stuff about school so I was exited and nervous

3 days after*

Monday morning I woke up at 6:30 I took a shower put on some skinny jeans and a gray shirt and put on my black vans and did my hair straight and I went down stairs I was eating oatmeal and I forgot to check the time so I took out my phone it was 7:05 I still have 10 minutes I said to myself.

Beep* beep*

To Joana: hey I'll meet you outside your house so we can go to the bus stop together

To jacob : alright I'll be out in a min

(Joana) I ran upstairs and I got my bagpack. And I went to brush my teeth fast and then I was outside

(Jacob) you look pretty and I look ratchet oh well there was a girl coming an it was Elizabeth i didn't like her she was like obsessed with me

(Joana) I just said wow when she came she saw me with Jacob and she gave me a dirty look and she was like touching Jacob and I was like oh she is obsess she's thirsty she's touching him and Jacob told her to stop but she didn't and I was getting pissed off cause she wouldn't listen and I said ey just leave him alone he doesn't want You to be touching him

(Elizabeth) shut up you don't even know me so don't talk to me

(Jacob)Joana just ignore her now she gonna be talking smack about you and the bus got there in time cause Joana looked really mad so I just told her c'mon lets get on and I told her to sit with me since she didn't know anybody

(Joana) thanks she gave me her little attitude I just hope she doesn't cause trouble

We got to school and I got my schedule and I showed it to Jacob and he said we have 1st 4th 5th and 7th period together so we have lunch together and I was happy cause I was gonna be with him almost every class period

In our 1 period we has Elizabeth she was with a little group of girls and she was pointing at me

Like Jacob said she was gonna be talking smack

Next period I had one girl that was with them and she seem nice and she came up to me and said Elizabeth was saying that you called her a bitch because you told Her to leave Jacob alone

And I told her I didn't and she sat beside me i don't know why but I didn't say anything and then in lunch Jacob came and hugged me and took me to his table but It was weird because it was all guys so I moved to another table and i was alone and then Elizabeth came and she was calling me ugly bitch slut dumbass stupid ass and a lot of names

(Elizabeth) you motherfucker you took Jacob from me I hate you an nobody is gonna like you and your ugly

(Joana) I felt really bad nobody had said those kind of things to me so I starded crying an left and Jacob saw me and he starded to run and he was telling me to wait and I did

(Jacob)what's wrong ?

(Joana)Elizabeth was calling me names like bitch slut stupidass and a lot more and just for telling her to leave you alone I relly felt bad and she's a fucken lier .one of her friends told me that Elizabeth said I called her a bitch I kept crying I couldn't stop

(Jacob) aww don't cry everything is gonna be good I gave her a tight hug and gave her a kiss in her forehead she was quiet I felt bad now she didn't really want to talk when we got home I asked her if she wanted to chill and she said no

(Joana) omg why can't I get it out of my head she called me ugly and she was really pretty

I don't know what to do and I had your ugly in my head I wish I didn't have it but now I'm starting to think I am so I went to the bathroom and I found something sharp and I started cutting myself It felt good but then I was gonna have the scars .I said to myself I'm ugly nobody is gonna want me ugly I'm worthless nobody cares about me I just wanna die

Beep*beep*

To Joana :are you ok ?

To Jacob: um yeah

(Joana) I had to lie I can't tell him I cut myself he would be sad and he would be mad a Elizabeth

I don't know what to do I just wish to go back to texas with all my friends nobody called me ugly bitch or any of those names

The blood wouldn't stop so I got a towel and put water and I was holding it and it hurt a lot I felt lonely worthless

It's kinda long but sorry if it's kinda boring too

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