you are not alone. ~sincerely, XXX

On my mind ~ 3

Stokes POV
(trying a new POV, gonna see if I like it)

I rapped along to my part of the song while dancing like a maniac as Jahseh was driving us to my crib.

"They catch me beating demons with a red Ferragamo belt
Had my witch do a hit, cast a spell hit the shelf
Bag o shells, fairy tells, fuck the gypsy I can't tell
Chain on me shine homie chandelier be crystal clear
Hee hickory dickory dock
God damn my rollie don't never tick tock
I flood my diamonds like I'm Bubba Sparxxx
Grind on yo' bitch like my name Tony Hawk
Slang like I'm Zelda then fight minotaurs
Smoking louder than drunk bitch at the bar
Whitney Houston call it coke in my car"

I stopped rapping after I noticed something was wrong with Jah. When I passed him the blunt he gave it right back and when his part of the song came on, he didn't even rap along to it, which was fairly unusual considering the fact that he gets hyped when we play one of our collab songs. I looked into the front view mirror where I saw he had a blank thinking expression on his face. "Yo,  Jah, nigga you good?", I said to him. He didn't respond until a good 3 seconds. "I'm fine. Why?", he replied knowing god damn well why I asked him. "Never mind, turn it back up", I said referring to the music.

Once we finally got to my crib he sat on the couch while I started up the PS4 and got some snacks for us. I came back with some chips, candy, and a bottle of Henny once the PS4 was fully turned on. I threw him the black controller while I used the green camo one. It hit him in the face, i grimaced thinking that he would start shouting at me. I slowly opened my eye, instead of him shouting he just rubbed his forehead and didn't say anything else. Now I knew something was really going on. Last time the controller hit his face because I didn't warn him, he got pretty pissed off but I couldn't do anything cuz I know the nigga crazy af. I waited a bit longer, just incase he had slow anger reaction today, after I knew 'the coast was clear', I walked over to the couch and plopped on. I sat around 10 inches away from him and put the snacks in between us.

Right when we were about to start the Call of Duty game, he got up and tossed the controller on the couch and said he had to go. He walked out the door not even saying bye or some kinda gay joke that we mostly say before leaving each other, like "aight honey, cya later" or something like that. "A nigga gonna feel some type of way if you don't say some joke before you leave", I whispered to myself right before he exited the door. He turned back with a slightly pissed off face obviously hearing my comment, he stared at me for a few seconds and then turned back around, shutting the door extremely hard. The sound of his car engine starting and taking off followed shortly after.

I fully laid down on the coach now since I had it all to myself. I disconnected his controller and then started a game. I waited till the game started while I drank a bit of Henny and ate some BBQ chips.

I was still so confused of why he all of a sudden started acting so serious in the car. I tried to think back to anything that happened in the car and if I said anything that would make him mad. I tried and thought back to even if I did anything in IHOP but I really couldn't find any reason for him to act like that. I slowly gave up trying to find the reason and continued with my game.

After playing for a good 3 hours and downing a whole bottle of Henny, I was tired and decided to go upstairs to watch some Spongebob and chill. I felt dizzy while goi up the stairs but I had my shit together. I've drank so much alcohol that just one bottle ain't gonna do shit to me. The only time I ever got wasted was when I drank 2 bottles of Henny and Ace of spades just after putting it on my story.

I sat down on my bed and quickly checked Instagram, I saw that I had gotten a few more comments on my post of Jah and I from some thirsty girls. I put my phone back down, lit a cigarette and continued watching spongebob. I was slowly drifting to sleep untilI slightly woke up when I heard that horrific Spongebob laugh, you know the one that's like "heiy-heiy-heiy-heiy", that will forever scare a nigga. I started going back to sleep, leaving the show continue since I was too lazy to turn it off. Just before falling asleep my mind came up with this random fact. Jahseh reminds me of spongebob, you squeeze him and he'll start letting out water. Sadly, I remind myself of Patrick, a stupid star, I laughed to myself when I thought of the two comparisons.
And with that, I was fully asleep.

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