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Back to hell ~ 4

Jahseh POV

My suspension from school was over and I was back to school today, I really didn't want to go. Everybody there is fake, full of shit, nobody cares until you die, and even then, they don't really care, they just want to seem 'polite' I thought to myself in disgust.

I finally woke up and got out of bed knowing that even if I begged my mom to let me stay home, she would just bring up the fact that I hadn't even at school for a whole week and I need education. I don't need education, I either want to be a rapper or a UFC fighter, none of which required education.

I looked through my clothes picking out my black 'aspects' hoodie and my dark blue jeans. I placed them on the bad and got my towel, getting ready to take a shower. I thought to myself for a second and then just said 'fuck it' I was too tired too take a shower so instead I just washed my face and then started putting on my clothes to get ready. I grabbed my bag putting in my binders, textbooks and my headphones so I didn't have to listen through all the bullshit that was being said.

I grabbed my phone off the desk, put it in my pocket and then went downstairs.

"Hey guys", I said in my tired, raspy morning voice.
My little brother waved at me with his mouth full of pancakes while smiling, I gave him a small smile because I didn't want him to feel bad and then went towards the kitchen. "What's wrong Jah?", my mom asked me in concern. "Nothing, I'm just tired, me and Stokes were working basically all day yesterday and I went to sleep late", I replied. She gave me a pill to help me wake up and went back to making pancakes. "I have work late today so you can go straight to school, I'll drop Aiden off", I smiled back at her in appreciation.

I took my plate of pancakes that was on the countertop and sat down at the dining table. I quickly ate my pancakes and then started to get going. I grabbed my car keys from my pocket and then started the car. I wasn't bothered to play any music so I just drove there in complete quietness.

Once I got to school, I had a huge crowd swarming me, at first I tried to ignore it but it got to the point where I couldn't even walk a step forward without getting completely shoved to the other side. "Move the fuck outta my way!", I said in an angry voice. All the talking stopped and everybody slowly backed up and went back to what they were doing originally. I got a few dirty looks from people while I was walking towards the school but I shrugged it off, knowing that they were all 'fans' of me and wanted to ride my dick.

I entered the school and went to my councilors office. He quickly opened the door for me after I knocked and welcomed me in. We talked for a while and had conversations of the new games that were coming out. That's the one thing I liked about having Mr. Davids as my councilor. He understood me unlike others, my previous councilors were jackasses and thought I was crazy but he knew what was going on in my life and he knew how to calm me down.

After talking with him for 20 minutes about things we both enjoyed, the bell rang which meant first period. I had chemistry with Stokes and Aysia.

I walked in the class and Aysia told me to sit beside her and Stokes, obviously i wasn't gonna pass up on that offer, it just meant a higher chance for me to slide into them DMs.

I sat in between her and Stokes and by now I think Stokes new I had a thing for her so he scooted over a bit and 'accidentally' shoved me into her. I quickly replied saying sorry and then giving Stokes a 'Imma kill you after this' face, even though I appreciated him for doing that. I turned back around to her and saw that she was looking at me and Stokes while giggling. I found it so cute even though I tried so hard not to. "What's so funny", I asked. "You and Stokes are couple goals, it's so cute seeing you guys get mad at each other", she said while still slightly laughing. I gave Stokes a wink and he gave a 'perfect' sign (👌🏾) under the table, trying to imply that I'm doing good so far.