Fanatic Ghost

The Jealousy: Seokjin

Where that Ghost goes, he's must be somewhere. I look around the area but I didn't notice him and glance at Hobie which busy rehearsing his dancing for the upcoming event. He's the only one who identified that he's around although I can observe him. -- You read it, right I can see him but I don't want to think everybody. That, I'm crazy.--

Jimin said I'm suffering from hallucinations that's why I've been imagining him as my hallucinations. It's kinda unusual that every time he's with us, Hobie always encounter chills that couldn't explain. The open Jimin came and the staff is happy to see him. What did you expect he'd have charms and appeals. He acknowledged by the staff especially women they really like him. Many people said that he has a great future and many capabilities unlike me just a jerk who knows nothing but a shadow behind him. --No one care of you. Your just a mere people who just exist because of Jimin.--

I sigh again in sadness why nobody notices me. I am ugly??

I glance at myself in the mirror. I have a soft supple cheek, a plum lip, big doe eyes and...

"A beautiful person, I've never seen." I snapped and turn my head whoever said that. I smile when I see him again but my facial expression back to dull again as I notice that he's with Jimin. Even my fanatic ghost loves Jimin. I'm back to my fraudulent expressions that I couldn't see him. "SeokJin back to your photo shoot!" My Manager half-shout on me, and the looks of his mug he kinda annoyed. His name is Min Yoongi, he's the stepchild of our CEO.

"What are looking at? " Yoongi said but I reply my flat fakely smile.

"I've never realized, your cute Yoongichi when your wearing thick glasses! " I took a glance to my Fanatic Ghost reaction, he pouts and frowned taking a near gazed to Yoongi.

"Yeah. Right, Kim Seokjin. Stop teasing me." He smiles but it back to his cold and emotionless expression when he saw Jimin talking happily to his fans. It's tugging to my heart when I've always seeing Yoongi like that. "Let's go back to work! " I agreed and took a glimpse again to my Fanatic Ghost which he's staring firmly to Jimin. I leave him without any fluctuation and back again to my work from the entire day, my Fanatic Ghost always follows Jimin whenever he goes. I got frustrated because my day is not good. At the end of our shooting, we checked back to our dorm. Hoseok didn't sit beside me but back again to Jimin side.

"Jiminie did you put the air conditioning high temp. It's so cold! " Hoseok complaining as he brushes his arms. My expression becomes frowned when I saw my Fanatic Ghost beside Jimin.

"Hoseok... You can seat with me!" I endeavored. "It's better here. I want to hear your new mixtape!" I offered to him at the same time I smirking at my ghost.

"Thank you Jinnie.. you're the best!!!" He screams in excitement, after that he embraces me --- smiling while my attention to my Fanatic Ghost reaction. --

I can show his conservatism with a pout on his face. Jimin just laughs at us. It's kinda uncanny, why Hoseok chills every time this Ghost beside him while Jimin doesn't respond anything. The hour of our trip was so soundless, I'm listening to Hoseok new mixtape while he's sleeping on my shoulder -- he's really tired.--

I'm watching the rains splashing into the car window. The luminous light reflects he's only glancing at the window, watching the tower and building rainbow masks light. 'Maybe he's angry at me.'

That was my thought from the whole time.

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On the way to our dorm. I heard Jjague bark when I opened the door, he welcomes me with wiggles tails. I petting his hair same he licks my chin. After that Jjague bark my other which I saw my Fanatic Ghost petting on him also. I just watch him when he rolls over to the floor for him and the best part he also talked to Jjigae. I apprehend I got envious of him when I really don't know his name. I seized my bags and things as we enter my room to greet my sugar glider and got a text message from Yoongi.

From Manager Min

To all, We have a 1-week break and proceed to our US runaway.

I shed my clothes and slipper and shown myself to the rear mirror and wear some plain white shirt and brown sweatpants. I slightly peek the covered curtain of my sugar glider case. I put their foods in a plastic bowl and look around to seek if my fanatic came back. ~He doesn't...~

Usually, at this time he's playing with Jjagaue but all this time. I considered so heavy every time. I think about him. I determined to organize my things and neat my room. The best way is to drank a glass of water to rejuvenate my body. As I walk to the kitchen, I saw him. ~My Fanatic Ghost~

He is sitting in front of Jimin, watching him in a steady head and eyes. Jimin greets me and invites me to have a dinner with him along with Jhope and his husband. I declined they're offered. While the people around them murmuring to me. "I don't have an appetite to eat something and I'm on diet remember." I reason out, I neglected them, I heard one of the designers said. --he's getting fat like a pig.'--
I took a watered bottle and proceed to my room before that my room located in front of the kitchen in all of us. I have the smallest room since I didn't give enough money to the company unlike Jhope; He is a model; a songwriter, rapper while Jimin was a top model of our agency, he got everything; fame, attention, wealth, avid fans and most of all; the company's cash cow without him maybe the agency will be fall out. Jimin has everything, every people wishing about.

I considered skeptical regarding him, he can make people fall on him. A multi-awarded model. He was so high that even a hard work and dreams couldn't reach. While Kim Seokjin an underrated model with only a few "supported fans" have only pitted on me because they seeing me as a loser, a doll rug, and the worst part a shadow behind Jimin's back without him.
'I'm just nothing.'

I watched the other staffs and designer talking Jimin, giving him a food with a smile on their face. The people saying good things towards him like.

"You did a great job."
"What did expect to Park Jimin."
"Jimin got the promotion."
"You did again Jimin."

Those words keep lingering over... and over again. I watch them laugh and keep praising Jimin in his great job... And me., Here crying under my bed sheets wishing that I will reach his level but you know ~ It's not.~

I entered my room keeping my tears to drop but... I can't help it, I felt so down, humiliated and hurt like a thousand needle pinning toward my heart.

The worst is the thing who comfort me, by a kiss; hug me in his warm presence now... He's with Jimin right now. Having fun along with him. My one only fan.

My Fanatic Ghost.

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