Layers [Poetry]

It's The Night

It's the night that scares me

Because I'm not safe from my fears

I'm not safe from my destructive self

I look into the past

And I can't see a future

For someone this shattered

Am I an undiagnosed lunatic

For fabricating too much in my mind?

There's me but there's also me

I love too much, I laugh

I also stare at my reflection in a murderous way

I give unconditionally

But I also tell myself to take it away

And I've stolen my own tears

Relief of my my own pain

Why do I paint my own nails black?

Why do I hide the sun from myself?

Why do I fear being me in the darkness of the night?