The Belletrist

13. The Greatest Scare of my Life...Yet

Dear Sir,

I'm going to tell you the greatest scare of my life...yet.

Apparently, now that I've graduated, gotten my title and now working, I seem to be ready for marriage. That's according to my relatives, anyway. So, they want me to accept this marriage proposal by a cousin (second-degree) which could also seal our reconcilition since we've just been reunited after a decade-long family feud blahblahblah. I'm not interested honestly. I'm not yet ready to get married and I don't like him to get myself be ready and enamored with the idea of marriage. 🙄

I have so many plans ahead for my life, so many things to do and I'm still enjoying my new-found independence. And yeah, well, maybe they're right...that indeed, maybe I was waiting for someone. And I don't have to really clear out who that someone is, do I? It's pretty clear who. 😒

So yeah, everyone talked to me. They kept on convincing me to go on with my marriage - promising me a better life with him, blahblahblah. But my mind and heart is closed on this matter. I want to obey my parents but the idea of marrying this guy is just too much. I know women's hearts are fragile, it's not that impossible to fall in love with someone...and come to think of it, it's those kind of love-after-marriage stuff that a believing Muslimah would want. So you see, I know, but I stopped it before we even get to that. Because I don't want to. I liked someone else.

Someone who I don't know if I'll end up with. Someone who I don't know if he even knows of how I feel for him. Someone who I don't know if he even cares.

So I prayed for it to be stopped. I cried in my prostrations hoping it would end. It was a restless and sleepless period of my life. I couldn't be talked to properly. I hated the topic whenever someone would bring it up. They even attempted to set us up on an accompanied date. 😒 My god, they didn't really know me well. Chocolate and flowers?! In a public shopping mall, no less? Me? Are they crazy?! I left the flowers somewhere and gave away the chocolates. Bah.

Finally, thy prayers are heard. They couldn't wait for my requested three years of waiting so they cancelledt everything. I couldn't have been more relieved, you know. Good riddance, I say. And I hope, they never go back in my life.

I want my life in peace and serenity...with you. 😅 I wish.

So, yeah, that was a scare. I mean a little push from my family might lead me to say yes because I could see how this has been a burden to my parents which are caught in the middle. I could see they didn't want to force me but the pressure from our relatives
must have been hard.

So, you see, that's how hard I resisted in the hopes of maybe someday...you and I...will walk that aisle together. 👰🏼💑

Love,

Rosie.