Everything was in a flash. I was jumping off the cliff to me being in a hospital with nurses around me
"Honey, is anything hurting?!" The nurse panicked
"Everything." I said as everything in my body was throbbing in pain
"Give her 200 more milligrams."the nurse ordered to the others
"Is there anyone that we can contact?" She asked me
"Y-yeah." I stuttered out
"Who is it? What's the number?" She asked
I gave her nicks number
"Can you tell him to bring the guys. He'll know what I mean. And say not Adi and Tal tho." I said in a whisper cuz my voice hurt
"Sure will." She said as she left the room
I survived
I'll have to survive life with this on my head all my life
My thoughts got interrupted by the nurse
"They are on there way ma'am." She said as she came and gave me some water
"You will stay in here for about 4 days then we will have to take you to the other part of the hospital cuz you did tried to attempt suicide and we can't send you home right away. I do hope you understand that ma'am." She said with a calm smile on her face
I nod my head and closed my eyes but for that to be interrupted by running into the room
"Tiarra!" Someone yelled
"Oh my god!" They yelled again
I open my eyes to see all the boys
"Why?!" Nick yelled but calmed down after the nurse asked him to
He nod his head and they sat down next to me
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry." I broke down crying
"Shh, let it out." Jojo said walking up to me and hugged me
"What happened?" Anthony asked me
"I-I-" I couldn't say it
"You what?" Michael asked me
"I tried to c-commit suicide." I said as I looked down not wanting to look at them
The room went silent...
Then the door slammed open to see my... MOM
"Honey are you ok?!" She panicked
I looked over at the boys trying to say something else then 'yeah I tried to commit suicide!'
"I called her. I told her what happened." David said
"Why didnt you tell me honey?!" She asked me when's he pushed Jojo out the way
"I-I was scared to!" I said as I broke down
She hugged me as tears came down her face
"Why would Tal do this to you?! He so nice! And everything in a guy! What started it?!" She asked me
"I don't know mom." I said as I have no damn idea on how all this shit happened
She nods her head as she understood
3 weeks later
"Guys, we have something to say." Tal said I to the camera
"Me and Adi is very sorry to Tiarra and her family, her friends, anyone that knew her." Tal said
"We have messed up, really bad this time." Adi said as he looked down
"I hope you guys forgive us. Fuck I mean I hope that you guys leave the channel! We fucked yo pretty bad!" Tal said as he got mad
"Me and Adi had been... abusing a girl, my girlfriend." Tal said as he looked down
"We are very sorry. We will not be uploading videos until we get this worked out." Adi said
"We hope you guys understand and forgive us." Tal said as the video ended
I just rolled my eyes as I got up from my bed.
I have been better but not that much. I can walk thank the lord but I can't move that much around without me yelling out 'fuck!'
2 months later
I have been a bunch better and the boys are uploading again. Yes I do still watch them but I don't hand out with Tal and Adi, but I do hang out with the other boys and we always have bunch of fun
I don't hang out with Tal, but me and him have been texting for a little. I said that we can't date or see each other for a while but I do hope that we do work out a friendship!
Hope you like it!! Sorry it took so so long it was my fault!! But guys suicide is a real thing and if you have been through it like me then please tell someone you trust or you know that can help. If you have no one, you can always text me and I can help or call the suicide hotline! This is real thing that happens to so many young teens and adults! Please be careful out there! ❤️❤️
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