Blind Eyes That See

Chapter 1.

I'm not sure if I should like name the chapters of just number them..

_3 Years Laters_

Ruth's Pov

I sat Inside a small room. Silent. It's been 3 years. But I don't think that I can ever get used to this.

"Hello, Ruth. How are you?" The doctor sat down in front of me

"I'm fine, thank you.." I smiled

"Okay.. Let's continue our regular check up.. Umm.. Have you gotten any memories back?"

"Little chunks of it are slowly coming back to me. Little things of my past. But nothing fresh." I said

"How about your eyes? Can you see anything?" He asked me

"Are you making fun of my blindness? Of course I can't see! I'm blind! And probably for life.." I said

"I'm sorry.. You'll get your eyesight back. Your brain just doesn't want to make the nerves work.."

"It's not my brain.. It's not part of the after shock. I'm just plainly blind." I sighed

I gave up hope long ago. I left the office silently. The stick, reminding me of the darkness I live in. My mom walked me out and when I got into the car I fell asleep. I miss everyone. Elani is in one of her photo shoots and Anees is with Jamal in Florida I think. Ayite is with his father and Antonio... He and I aren't close. I'm not close to many of my supposedly friends anymore. I'm a burden.

"They called to say that you have a photo shoot tomorrow morning so rest."

"Mhmm.."

I'm blind, but that didn't seem to Bother companies who used me as their model to advertise clothes and many other accessories. But modeling is not what I would call my cup of tea. But I enjoy it.

"Ruth!" Elani's voice echoed inside my room

"Girl.." I extended my hand and looked to the side.

My eyes directed to nowhere in particularly. But she caught my hand and pulled me in for a hug. The musk of her sweaty and exhausted body mixing with her sweet perfume to create a scent that is hers alone. We sat down on my bed.

"How was it?" I asked

"It was good.. Tiring like always. But good. How'd your appointment go?" She asked

"It went okay.. The doctor says we've made progress and that if I let my brain relax enough then maybe I'll be seeing pretty soon." I smiled

"That's great! I'm so happy.. We'll soon all go back to being the same people we were in high school. " I could almost see the smile in her face

"How's Carlos?" I asked suddenly

"Why do you ask?"

"I haven't seen him in a while.. Well, I can't see.. But.. You know what I mean.. I miss him.." I admitted

"Oh.. He's good.. I think he's been hanging out with his girlfriend or something.. " she said

I felt a tightening in my chest at the mention of his girlfriend. I didn't know he had one. But Elani described him to me. And he seems very handsome.

*******

My mom let me stay outside today. The fresh air filling my lungs. I felt the bright sun on my skin. Everything felt good.

"Hey.." The voice startled me

"Who's there?" I asked

"Carlos.." His hand brushed against mine and I felt my face heat up

"Hey," I smiled

"How are you?"

"I'm good, you?" I Asked

"I'm good. It's been a while," he laughs softly

(Taylor Swift- Last Kiss Begins To Play)

"I know.. I missed you," I said shamelessly

"I missed you too.. I still do.." He said the last part quietly

No one ever told me what Carlos and I were. Elani would always evade talking about him. Why do I feel like crying now? I feel this hurt and I wanna stop it. It aches.

"When did we meet?" I asked

"Freshman year.. You were so friendly with everyone.. I instantly fell- umm.. Wanted to befriend you. And so we became friends. And we went through a lot together. You forced me to watch a corny movie with you. And yeah..." He stopped at a certain point and I don't understand why

"Were we, ever more than friends?"

I didn't know where I was getting. But, I needed to know. I want to know.

"Yeah.. That night," he hesitated. "When we watched the movie.. I asked you out.. Actually.. It was today.. That day, month, it was today. When we first kissed.. But.. When you woke up.. You forgot me.." He said with a hint of sadness I could not ignore

I've been awake for 3 years. And I never knew that I left a lover. Was he the one who had left that day? I think, yeah.. The doctor asked where the blue eyed boy was and they simply said he had left.

"I'm sorry." It was all I could say

"It's okay.. It wasn't meant to be." And it hurt me again.

"Why do you say that?" I asked

"Because everything happens for a reason.. And maybe this was a sign. That, you and I- we.. We weren't meant to happen."

I knew he was standing up. I stoop up and searched for him. As soon as his hand touched mine I flirt this weird spark. It wasn't a new thing. That I know. Because those are lies. When people tell you and make you believe that once you touch for the first time you'll feel the spark.

It's impossible. Your heart doesn't know that person, for it does not love it. Your body doesn't recognize the touch, so it doesn't react to it. But my heart knows him, my body too. So I wrap my arms around him.

"I don't remember you.. But my whole body does, my heart does.. I'm sorry.. For forgetting the one I love, for not being able to see you.. I wish I could.. "

But now I'll go sit on the floor

Wearing your clothes

All that I know is

I don't know how to be something you

miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss

Never imagined we'd end like this

Your name, forever the name on my

lips