THE BETRAYAL

chapter 27

I am 3 months pregnant and I am starting to see my baby bump and I am excited. I've been saving my salary so I  can find an apartment when the baby is born.I haven't told the Jones yet,I will tell them after I tell my mother. I hope she isn't dissapointed in me wherever she is.

Today is a holiday so I took this opportunity to drive out town to go see my mother. It's been a while and I miss talking to her.  Everytime I go there,I do feel her presence and that makes me feel good. I really do love my mother and I am missing her so much.

I parked my car by the flower store so it's closer to the grave yard.
"Good afternoon mam,"I greeted the owner.

"Hello Cas,you look well and seem to be gaining weight,"she smiled.I just laughed."How are you Cassidy? How are you coping?"I don't know why I am so comfortable when I chat with this lady. I just feel like I can trust her.

"I am good,"I keep my reply at a simple level." May I please have the usual,"she nodded and handed me the yellowish Roses,my mom's favourite.

"One Lady called Agnes,came to see your mum.She seems to have known her cause she knew her favourite flowers,"I am pulled back by this news.Agnes is Jay's mother and she came to see my mother. They didn't know each other. This is really confusing ,I will just speak to her when I get home.

"Thank you for telling me,Agnes is my guardian,"I told her.

"Oh,she is a good woman."

"Thank you,I have to go now," She nodded and smiled and with that I dismissed myself and made my way to my mom's tombstone.

I put the flowers on her head."hello mother,sorry I haven't been around. I've been very busy,I got a really good job,"I smiled. "I miss you mother,I wish you were here with me,"I can feel the tears in my eyes,maybe this is what I need,I need to cry."Mother I am really sorry,I know I broke your rule of not having  sex before marriage,I am very sorry,please forgive me,"I sit down next to her tombstone and put my head on it and I hear the thunder but I won't stop I need mummy to forgive me."I did it because I thought he loved me like the way I loved him,I mean I thought I loved him but I misinterpreted my feelings of friendship and intimacy,I thought  I loved him as a man not a friend but that's not it,mother,I am 3 months  pregnant,"after that sentence,it started raining . This shows how upset my mum is,I know this is silly but I believe this silly myth. I won't go until the rain stop showing that my mum has forgiven me. "I am very sorry mum,please forgive me,I need your forgiveness  ,I can't  continue with my life knowing you are upset with me......"I continued to ask for her forgiveness until the was no rain anymore ,I looked up and realise that I was covered by an umbrella.

"Hello,you gonna get sick,if you continue sleeping there,"the voice sounds really familiar.I stood up to get closer and I was not expecting to see him here,"Cassidy?"Finn said.

"Hel.."I couldn't continue,my voice came out as a cough.I have cried for too long.

He studied my face and looked down on my mum's tombstone, "Gail Crane Louis,"he read out loud "any relation?"he politely asked.

"My mother,"his eyes widen and looked down as a show of respect or embarrassment,I am really not sure.

"I'm sorry."

"It's fine,no need for that. Who did you come visit,"I feel really blunt for asking him but I am trying to make a conversation.

"My sister,"His face drop he looks like he is on a verge of crying. I guess his sister's death affected him badly."I think it's time for you to go home,you need to change your clothes and drink something warm or else you will get sick,"he said wiping away the tears and water on my face. With that caring gesture, I couldn't  refuse and I need to be well for my baby. I nodded at him and gave my mum a kiss.He removed his jacket and put it on me.What a gentleman.