My Model || Kim Taehyung FF ✔️

11- My Shadow

⏰ One Month Later ⏰

Hana's POV

She was my shadow.

The one that people would wave at and say hi to. I was the one that people would talk to.

I was the one that boys liked. The one that got their attention. They'd ask who she was and I'd tell him that she was Park Inna. My best friend.

My only friend.

But I didn't tell them the last part. I had many friends.

But only one of them was real.

And that was Park Inna.

Back in middle school, she was still a sprout. She wasn't ready to be on her own. She needed me to be by her side.

Or that's what I thought before high school came along.

She had had a crush on Sehun for the longest time. I was trying to persuade her to go out with him but stuff was just holding her back.

It had been a year later before she mustered the courage to confess. They were scheduled to meet by the freshmen hall when suddenly he came into the picture.

That 'he' was Kim Taehyung.

They bumped into each other. He immediately caught my eye but I didn't think that he'd catch Inna's eyes as well.

He was perfect to me in every way. Yet I still couldn't understand why at the end of sophomore year that he and Inna got together.

It just threw me off.

And I started to be mean to her. It hurt me every time I'd bring her down but I just couldn't. How could my shadow have taken over?

At that moment I realized...Inna was no longer a sprout. She was a beautiful flower with an amazing personality. She...was something more precious than I was.

And I hated it.

I just hated her guts once I realized what kind of person she had become. She was almost that complete opposite of me. She was...nice and kind and she had her goals set for herself.

Meanwhile, I was...rude and chaotic. I didn't wanna see far into the future because I was afraid to see failure.

She was, without a doubt, the better choice of the two.

I didn't mean to hurt Inna.

I really didn't.

But when your ego is too big, you just can't help but hurt the people around you just to feed that ego.

In fact, I once tried to be like Inna. Nice and bubbly. But that didn't go too well. I remember one of my classmates. He said, "You aren't fooling anyone Hana. Stop being fake and go back to that snobby self of yours."

Their words hurt. It made me realize that it was too late to change my personality now. I had officially become, a snobby, gossiping bitch.

And I didn't even bother to change anymore.

I don't know why I decided to take Taehyung away from Inna. It's just that the moment I saw him, leaning against the lockers in a pondering state, I brought him down.

He knew me.

As 'Inna's best friend'.

And that just made things inside of me boil. I wanted to be known. I wanted him to know me.

I told him stuff.

Stuff I shouldn't have. But I couldn't stop myself. I wanted him to myself.

I told him how Inna was gonna leave him if he continued to act the way he was. I told him that Inna may be laughing and smiling with him right now, but in reality, when she's with her other friends she's talking behind his back.

And I guess I made something inside of him click.

And we hit it off.

I guess you could say that seeing Inna happy was something I really hated. She had everything I wanted.

So when I took Taehyung I felt...bad? I don't know I just felt like I shouldn't have done that. I regretted it but seeing him smile at me and make me feel important made me feel all jittery inside. I loved that feeling.

So instead of falling in love with Taehyung...I fell in love with how it felt like to be loved.

I did the exact same thing with Jungkook.

I loved the way he played with his words. The way he was so playful. In fact, I think I loved Jungkook for who he was.

But when I saw Taehyung going back to Inna, I just couldn't let that happen. Even though the man I loved was standing right by my side, I would be after Taehyung.

I don't know why I just...guess I grew attached to him in a way that made me go crazy.

I loved the feeling of being loved.

But I also loved Jungkook.

But no matter how hard I tried to make Inna suffer.

She couldn't.

There was always someone else waiting for her.

And no one was waiting for me.

I miss...Park Inna.

Please...be my best friend again...

I'm sorry.

But I can't see you happy.

Please be my shadow again.

Please just keep being a sprout.

I'm begging you.

Stop being you.

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Chapter Eleven done.

My summer has begun 😂. Too bad that I start school next month. That means that I only have a month to finish this story (along with Into a New World) in order to achieve my summer goal.

But don't worry guys. If I don't finish this during the summer, then I'll surely finish this story by the end of the year.

I'm sorry for making this chapter depressing. 😅