Missing You [sequel to "idiot"; yoongi x reader

Chapter; 10

Shock, confusion, pain and blood.

She sat up quickly in her bed and placed a hand on her abdomen and tried to quitely grunt in pain but the sharp cramps that were spreading throughout her lower stomach area. She started to feel sick and scared because she didn't know what was happening to her own body.
Her eyes looked down and were met with the crimson red colour that made it's way from between her legs, soaking through her pyjama bottoms all the way out to the now not so white sheet.
Feeling the agony like being stabbed once again she almost screamed out causing Y/n to wake up and look at her with tired eyes, assuming that she was just having a nightmare but when the morning sun that had just started to rise shone lightly through the curtains and revealed the horror like situation, she immediately threw off the duvet and told her to stay calm while she went to wake up Eun so she could help them.

After receiving the news the oldest one rushed into the room to hep Y/n carry her toward the car. Every now and then Soojin would hunch over, hold onto her belly whilst her tears streamed down her cheeks like waterfalls.
Eun was driving the car as quickly she could without the risk of them getting into a car crash. Y/n was sat in the backseat holding onto to Soojin whose tears she couldn't control. Y/n was trying to whisper reassuring words to her ear, telling her things like everything was going to be okay but she knew it wouldn't because the maknae had never been good with pain.

Seconds felt like minutes and minutes felt like hours.
Soojin and Y/n were in the patient room, talking to and being helped by doctors.
Eun had been forced to stay outside to fill in a paper about the pregnancy loss.
''Kim Soojin'' saying that it pained her to write in the name of their maknae on a thin line was an understatement. She started to wonder how many more pranks and evil cruelties life would play on them, especially to someone who was as sweet and kind like the youngest one.

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Getting home was easier said than done since Soojin argued a tad bit with one of the doctors, she couldn't actually believed what had happened and she wanted to know if there was anything they could do but she kept getting to hear no over and over again which made her frustrated.
Eun and Y/n ended having to drag her out of the hospital into the car, all against her will. Then to top that off there was so much traffic on their way back since people were on their way to jobs and school etc. They were already late for the filming but there was no way in hell they actually tell the producers or staff what had happened because then there was a possibility that they would tell Yang Hyun Suk and he would kick them out without thinking twice - that was nothing they could risk.

When anybody would ask publically why they were rushing to the hospital they just said that Soojin felt feverish, nauseous and ''some girl stuff''.
But all of the members from both groups knew, they knew exactly what had happened and they were great actors and actresses who covered it up for the camera, even Soojin. She was the best of them all.
There was a moment when time felt like it was standing still where they felt like they had no idea what was coming for them next or how they ended up like this.
Of course they ended up blaming themselves in all different sort of ways.

Yoongi and Hoseok were sat in the studio trying to get their minds elsewhere but they couldn't help to stop every five seconds and think about the absolute pain and tragedy that had occurred and how horrible and depressed Soojin (and Jimin) must feel.
Everyone had their different ways of processing this, Namjoon was sat out in the garden with a notebook and started to write some lyrics that didn't fit together and that didn't make any sense but he knew that perhaps one day when he would return to his right state of mind he could look it over, or he would just throw the paper into an open fire.
Soojin who was normally so discreet and careful when it came to anyone hearing her sobs didn't hold anything back now when she was locked into her room, crying from the loss of the baby that she will never get to hold or ever see but also crying because earlier on she had wished for the baby to be gone and disappear. A part of her was relieved that she wouldn't have to be a mother yet and the other part hated her for thinking things like that and that such thoughts were the reason why she didn't deserve to be happy. She tried to breath in between but by each second that went by it all just seemed to grow harder and harder.
She placed her soft and fragile hand on her sore belly again and sobbed harder whilst mumbling things like ''my baby''.

Y/n was sitting in her room that just had a corridor between hers and Soojin's, she didn't want to listen to the agonising breaths of air she would take or how each cry became more painful, but at the same time she couldn't stop because she wanted to hear that she was alive. She thought if she pt her headphones on for even just a second the maknae would stop breathing or do something that she would regret. Y/n had tried to get in and talk to her and hold her but she told everyone to leave her alone.

Jimin was looking at himself in the big practise room mirror that covered the wall in front of him. It reminded him of back in the days where he would hate himself so much and he did right then and there. He blamed himself for giving Soojin so much pain and stress, It was his fault that it happened. He fucked up and now he would have to live with it for the rest of his life.
He ruined a girl by one night's mistake, a girl that he cared for so much, someone who would probably hate him forever now.
Soojin who carried their baby that they had now lost and were never going to get back. He cried. He broke down into tears on the floor where he remained for hours.