Katy's P.O.V.
I was in bed, just thinking. There was a lot to think about, so I was there for a while. I thought about Robyn, how I feel about everything. I thought about John, how he was gonna feel about everything. I know I messed up, but I just wish he could forgive me. Maybe he will, maybe he can forgive me. Honestly, there's no reason he shouldn't. He's cheated on me before. But still, that doesn't make what happened any less wrong...
No, you know what? He cheated on me before, so he should understand, he was away for a long time, and I told him how much I missed him, and when he came back and left, it only made me realize how much more I missed him. He's probably having sex with some random girl right now. I have been hurt so many times. By Travie, Russel, John, Even Rihanna! Maybe it's my turn to hurt back. Yeah...
But it doesn't make me feel any better. I feel worse. I remember how I felt when I was hurt, I don't want to do that to other people! Ugh! He even convinced his whole team to take a break just so he could see me for just a day. He waited all that time for me while I was on tour. I'm not even sure if he was faithful, but he promised me he's changed. I have to tell him. I can't lie like that. I took a deep breath to calm down. I have to tell him. John will be back in a week. I have to sort things out before then. Which means talking to Robyn again.
I feel like I'm sending mixed signals to her, telling her not to talk to me, and then starting a conversation. I just have to get all of this straightened out before I talk to John. I opened my phone to text her. I sent her "I think it's best we don't talk to each other again." But it never delivered. 'God really does work miracles' I thought to myself.
Okay, I'll do it today. Just to Get It Over With.
I laid there. 'I'm really about to risk my relationship with John?' I thought to myself. But I can't keep this from him anymore. My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing.
It was Bradford, my manager.
K: "Hey! Bradford. What's up?"
B: "Hi Katy. Nothing much. You?"
K: "Nothing. Just in bed. Why did you call me?"
B: " You have to come in for a meeting. To talk about what you're doing for your next album."
K: "Oh. When?"
B: "Today."
K: "Today?"
B: "I know. Really short notice, but we have to start planning soon."
K: "Alright. What time?"
B: "4:00pm. Is that alright?"
K: "Oh, yeah. That's fine. See you then, bye!"
B: "Bye!"
He hung up
'This could be a good thing.' I thought to myself. 'Now I have to talk to her before then, and I can't procrastinate all day.'
I got up, got ready, and headed to her house. I didn't call her this time, though. I just hope she's home. I saw her car and called her asking her to let me in. Thankfully, she agreed. I realized I don't even know what I'm gonna say to her.
I walked through her door, and smiled at her.
"Hi." I said.
She just gave me a small head nod.
"So... we need to talk about what happened yesterday, and the day before." I said
"I kissed you. I told you I loved you. You say you don't feel the same way, yet you had sex with me." She said.
"Yes, but that last part was a mistake. I love you, but not in that way anymore. You can't blame me. I got over you a while ago. I'm with John, now, and when you're over someone, it's hard to fall for them again."
"You told me that you loved me, and when you're in love, you never get over the person you're in love with." She said. I think she got that fact from when she wanted to be a psychologist or something.
"Well, then. I guess I was wrong."
"Okay, well is that all you wanted to say?"
"I want to ask if we're still friends. I still want to hang out with you." It was quiet for a second and I was afraid she'd say no.
"Okay, yeah, sure. You're right. I can't blame you. You love John. I can't just suddenly come in and try to change that." I hugged her after she said it. I took her a second to hug back.
"Thanks for understanding." I said. I heard her sniffle a little bit, but I didn't want to call attention to it.
"Are you gonna tell John?" She asked.
"Yes. I can't lie to him." I said as I broke the hug.
"When are you gonna tell him?"
"When he comes back, but I'll wait a few days so I can enjoy his company a little bit more."
"Alright. Well, I hate to cut this short. But I told myself I'd only talk with you for five minutes, cause I have songs to write. So... I have to go do that." I checked my phone for the time.
"Yeah. I actually have a meeting to go to soon."
"Oh. I'll see you later I guess."
"Bye." I said ask opened the door and walked to my car.
'That went so much better than expected' I thought.
